how to deal with existential crisis after witnessing death?

Death is a normal part of the cycle. It's not normally happy. But that's life - that's normal. I've lost pets, i've lost siblings, and parents. That's normal - that's the cycle of life. Find happiness in what they have achieved, what they have provided, or just that you still live. It doesn't matter.... that's life.

I've witnessed the most horrid and painful deaths imaginable - and they are horrid - life is much better. It does matter.

Maybe read more about death, both in philosophy, several religions and pragmatically (biology). It's normal to think like that for a while.

I fully empathize. My other cat went as well horribly. Coyotes finally got her.

Her whole litter had the same fate, only years before she passed on.

I reconcile it by the fact that she at least had those few years in far better comfort and with love then when she was wild.

Sorry about your cat. Desth and life go hand in hand. Life matters so you better live one. Do not worry about desth. Take great care of yourself. Learn. Grow. Evolve. If you gocus on death, you will see only the negative. Do you really want that?

And then you realize that cats have been around for a very long time so.... An individual death can be shocking if you are not used to seeing deaths but death is just a part of living. Something we have all been born to do.

Part of us dies when we lose someone close.
Of course we eventually get over losing the loved one but part of us is still humbled.

I wish there were some quick-fix answer but I have not found one.

I am sorry for your loss

Death is a powerful reminder and calls us to prepare for the death if our own

Life matters as long as you give it purpose without purpose you are absolutely correct it doesn't matter

You'll get over that with time. Experience it too much and you'll just be like: 'Meh' 🤷‍♂️

Ouch, my condolences.

I'm sorry 😞

Why did the CReator make pain exist....was it to stimulate our reaction to it?

Interesting observation 🤔