German Dunkelgelb I figured out a recipe for the dark yellow you see on German vehicles from 1943 onwards - it's Nazdreg Yellow contrast thinned down 4:2 with Contrast Medium (4 parts medium to 2 parts Nazdreg)
Legions Imperialis These models are 8mm scale, so about 25% of the size I normally paint for Warhammer, or a little over half the size of Flames of War models. I just did a really rough Imperial Fists scheme. I will not be doing this game for myself lol
I'm struggling right nowI'm not depressed, but overwhelmed. I have so many models and I kind of just want to get rid of them all and start all over again with everything. Sorry for wasting everyone's time.
More models to sellI'm going through my Flames of War collection(s) and figuring out what I have, what I plan to use, and what is just sitting around. The idea is that if I can cut down collections and just get what I can use, I could actually have fully painted stuff....See More »
A bad photo of a cat Her name is Trixie. We got her as a kitten in 2006. Of 3 cats, she's the only one left. I love her so much.
I got back some models I tried to sell like 2.5 years ago And now I have no idea what to do with them. Back in the container they go, I guess.
Had a performance review this afternoonI was super anxious about it beforehand but he said that everything was going well. So now I'm burnt out in that way of having been fueled by anxiety that has since dissipated resulting in a weird quasi-empty feeling
I played a game of Flames of War last nightMy Berlin Fallschirmjager fought British and I won though it was insanely close. I have to figure out how to make a better army list though.
Titles annoy me at times like thisI'm doing a lot better today than I was two days ago, and better than even yesterday. The side effects from missing antidepressants seems to have pretty much passed, although there is still a bit of confusion and brain fog lingering. However, the...See More »
Deutscher Stahl Panthers, Jagdtiger, and a halftrack I was working on last night. I used Zandri Dust paint for the Dunkelgelb (instead of a paint made to be that colour) and although mine are a little more brown, I'm not sure it would make much visual difference...See More »
Yesterday was badI forgot my meds in the morning and so couldn't take the ones at night to keep things in balance. It was a rough night, with fitful sleep, dreams that were weird in ways I can't explain or even remember, and waking up 4 times between 2am and 8am (and...See More »
Since nobody seems to see these anyway...Sometimes I just want a long, loving hug. To hold and be held. Anything beyond that seems completely impossible, and even this dream feels unattainable. Got to push through the touch starvation to get back to numbness. Comfortable numbness.
Do you have people you hang out with regularly?The only time I seem to see my friends is when I'm at work. They're always too bust to hang out outside of that though, so I'm always alone. I wish I had people to hang out with recreationally :(
Just thoughtsI'm thinking about leaving again for a bit. I feel so outside of everyone else here, like it's somewhere I no longer fit in. Arguably I never did to begin with, but that could be argued about literally everything I've ever joined in on. I've lately...See More »
Another model finished! 😍 Corvus Corax - Primarch of the Raven Guard legion of Space Marines, Horus Heresy The other model in the picture is Konrad Kurze, who is the Primarch of the Night Lords space marines
Mental health stuffAfter a week without meds, I started back on them on Tuesday. It feels now like a weight has been lifted from my shoulders, and the side effects I was having haven't reappeared so far. My friend Caitlin said to just enjoy it, but I genuinely have no...See More »
Do you have friends you no longer talk to?I have so many, and at least the ones on here were my fault. Sorry about that.
I got called 'sexy' by the friend who called me good lookingI'm pretty sure she was just saying it to be nice, and I'm still deeply confused by it, but it's made me feel a bit better about myself since. Sorry for wasting everyone's time reading this.
FOW update againI said last time that I needed to acquire an officer to run a third fallschirmjager platoon for my midwar army, and when I finally looked in my Big Bag of Tiny Men (tm) guess what I found! It was on top of everything else too, which is serendipitous....See More »
Flames of War nonsenseSo one of my friends is doing a 'Mid-War New Year New Army' thing, and I'm joining in. Since I love Fallschirmjager, and have a lot that I've not really decided what to do with, I'm going to use them for this 😀 That said, this is the 100pt list...See More »
Gaming stuff againI've been trying and failing to come up with an army list for Mid-War Hungarians for Flames of War, but I think I've come up with one that I'm OK with. It's a lot of resin and metal models, but that should be OK. Zrinyi Company: - HQ Zrinyi - 2x...See More »
Day 2 of new depression medI feel tired and hungry and like I'm shaking all the time. They said there would be side effects, and that they would last around 6 weeks. It feels kind of like withdrawals, although presumably not as bad.
I feel like nothing particularly mattersI should be used to it. I don't mean much to pretty much anyone and never really have. I don't know why anyone bothers with me at all. They keep telling me I'm "cool" and "amazing" and "good looking" but I know they're lying because everyone's always...See More »