I Don't Want My Life To Be Meaningless

@notmyfaultyourenotoriginal There is absolutely no way you can know that you don't influence anyone on SW and in life offline as well. We all influence people we come in contact with. Just because people might not say anything doesn't mean you don't affect their life.

When I see this post you affect me in 2 ways. First the fact that you are concerned about contributing to the world, and your desire to want to make a difference, gives me hope because I see a lot of people your age who miss that in a big way. They just want to consume. And it gives me hope that you are out there and that you really want to do something great.
Secondly it makes me a little sad to read this comment of you & that you think you're life has no point. I don't know you - so what should I care right? But I do. I have a good intuition about people, I'm rarely wrong with my first impression. When I look at your posts and replies to people, I see a young woman with a lot of promise and potential. You're smart and you ask thoughtful questions. You make people think. I know you will find your calling.

This world needs a lot more people like you! People who want to come into action and change the world. Steven Hawking and Bill Gates have most of their lives behind them. Don't compare your beginning to their middle or end. They hadn't done much when they were your age and who's to say you won't have achieved more than them by the time you're their age?

If you believe God has a plan for your life then ask him to show you the way. And He will! Trust in Him and you can't go wrong. Believe me He will... I speak from experience.

I hope you will soon see how you do affect others. It's young people with a desire like you have that go on to change the world. You're going to do great things!

@XNexoX Thanks for appreciating my post up to the God part. I'm not one to push my beliefs on someone. I merely said what I said because she mentioned she believed in a God's plan for her life. I reacted to that. - I don't owe you this explanation, but I decided to be nice about it.

@notmyfaultyourenotoriginal The fact that you defended me is a testament to what a great person you are. You got character!

Life can get better with age especially when you've found your purpose or calling and fulfill it. I had absolutely no idea what I wanted to do with my life when I was in my early 20's. At least you have some idea. Remember that even though legally you're an adult physically the brain continues to develop until the age of 25. I'm sure in a couple of years you'll have a better idea what you want in life

We cannot know God's plan. People who have lived lives of obscurity are suddenly in the right place at the right time. It's why I love the movie "Fury"...these five men are just average in all ways but suddenly they are where they can save the lives of hundreds maybe thousands of other men. They didn't plan it and didn't work towards it but it was there waiting for them. And to make the point clear they quote Isaiah 6: "And I heard the voice of the Lord say "Who is to go for us? And who shall I send?" And I answered "Here am I...send ME!" One day you will be called and I am sure you will know when it happens and will answer.

These are all just wonderful responses, seeing that there are still nice people out there really gives me hope!

@GoneRogue You left me speechless and with tears in my eyes. Thank you so much for taking the time to actually write this, I really appreciate it. I realized that I actually needed a few kind words and someone to make me see something I couldn't see with my own eyes. I felt worthless for not giving the best of me (and even when I did, it was not enough) and for not finding my path yet. Everywhere I look people seem to have their life together, they look like they got it all figured out and then there's me, so weak that even something that doesn't concern me (others fighting or going through bad stuff) can influence me greatly. But I think I've been comparing myself to the wrong people. I should focus on trying to make other people's lives better maybe by just smiling at them or saying beautiful and comforting words just like you have. It's hard for me to express myself and how I'm feeling because your reply really changed how I see things and now I'm just trying to express my gratitude but it seems like I don't have enough words in my vocabulary haha!

Hon listen. I am an orphan from Peru my parents murdered when I was 6 months old. I grew up all alone in an orphanage in Lima. No family, no money, no education beyond the orphanage school and I thought no future or a future that no one should want to have. At two months before my 17 birthday things changed in my life so much that I am now living in Israel. I have a job and maybe now a future. I was there at the correct time for this change...I did not will it in fact that change for the better happened on what I thought was the worst day of my life. I wanted to die...understand? The day my life changed and given some meaning was at the end of what I thought was the worst day of my life! You simply cannot see the future. Had I given up and listened to the absolute despair in my heart I would not be here writing you and telling you not to make a mistake I almost may...that of thinking my life was meaningless and over. I was wrong and stupid cause it was not. Please I ask you not to make the mistake in thinking about my life I was making only two years ago.

I know what you meant. But I felt I could never be anything, accomplish anything or influence anything. I was wrong and that was my point. We are not all destined to be Bill Gates. That is a lie given us by the media to make us dissatisfied with making equally meaningful contributions not "important" enough to be made into a reality TV show! You save someone's life who latter goes on to find the cure for cancer..who has made the greater contribution to history, you or Bill Gates? You prevent a friend rom doing drugs or killing themselves...she goes on to become one of your best presidents. Who made the greater contribution, you or Hawkings...who is not a great man to me and many others, by the way.

All I am saying you just don't know and if is nit cause of your age...we never know till it happens and it is so sudden we cannot even see it coming. There are thousands of cases that prove my point. Perhaps you are destined to be one of them but only psychopaths like Hitler and some living today think they were "born" to do great things. That is vanity.

OK, so you're evolving from your original post, and great for you. Your life has a lot of meaning, not only to yourself, but also to us. You can write a well-structured and meaningful post in clear English -- so you can express yourself and make your wishes known to the world. Also you are reading up on what others do, which means that you are inspired to participate in great human actions. If I may be so bold to suggest an idea: Many of us who are good in technical fields are not really very good at -- or bored with -- explaining in detail what we do. We actually need people like yourself, members of the general public, who can explain to everyone what we do and what our products are good for. That general activity might be exactly what you might be good at and where you can make a great contribution.

XNexoX I disagree with your first comment. I'm not religious( I'm open minded about spirituality though), but I think that his response was in the right place. He wasn't pushing his beliefs on anyone, he was just sharing a story from his experience and I love that he did that, it was a friendly advice. :)

@Abrienda Your life story is so inspiring, it makes me feel guilty for having such thoughts. I admire you for being so tough and not giving up even in the hardest of times. Universe has a really interesting way of dealing with things, in the darkest moments just when you are about to give up it gives you hope. I've been there so many times so I know how you felt. I'm sorry that you had to go through all of that but be proud because it made you a stronger, wiser and more sensible person. I'm glad everything turned out to be great, I truly am, you sound like someone who deserves it. But my problem however isn't in my life, I am satisfied with my life, I'm blessed with so many things but I'm just a sad person. That's simply it. I feel empty, lonely and depressed, I have friends and family but that's just how our minds work, they are complicated and even we ourselves can't understand them sometimes. I'm too emotional for this world and too weak to survive. I stopped fight a long time ago...
Thank you for sharing this and trying to make me feel better, you really are a lovely person!

@Abrienda You make an excellent point! There are little known heroes who save, or make people's lives. We don't see them on TV but they are still doing good and making this world a better place. For example all of you on this post, you changed the way I felt about life, now I'm full of positive energy and I can spread it and maybe help others! Thank you for your lovely responses x

Your life DOES have a point. Perhaps you are just seeking your purpose?

@Voyelle You are right, I still have a lot to figure out about myself. Well when I say that I mean that there are a lot of brilliant people in this world and they all contribute to this society in some way (physicist, public speakers, activists, engineers, etc) and I don't seem to have that logical intelligence like programmers and mathematicians do for example and I don't think I can do anything to change the current situation of this world. I could only try and do the best I can to influence people around me, but that won't make any difference. But after thinking about it more and reading the replies, I've realized that I I'm just a human and that I shouldn't compare myself to the people that achieved a lot in their lifetime because I'm only going to be unsatisfied with myself and I'm going to feel worthless. I also decided to stop feeling guilty for everything that I'm*not* doing and start focusing on the good things that I am doing. :)

Just want to state that God has nothing to do with religion. Religion is a trap.

Don't say that - why you may ask .. well here it is ..

Even the simplest thing you do, can make a huge difference to someone .. yes as cliché as it sounds, it's true. I'll give you an example ..

Your profile picture .. I smiled when I saw it, you're sweet looking ... already made a difference to me ..
Because I smiled, it put me in a better mood .. and my colleagues didn't get their heads bit off by my bad temper ..
All because of you :)

You're cautious, and that is a great insurance policy. Take it from one who originally was very imprudent. I've learned to explore, listen a great deal to others before jumping in with both feet, and then, when the moment is right, make the right move. As you go along, your life will take on a great deal of meaning, much as you hope to. Cheers to you!

@Rowenabrana That' is very sweet of you! Thank you! I completely agree with you, even the simplest things can make your day. I remember seeing a kid the other day and his innocent smiling eyes itrreally made me feel the warmth in my heart. We have to be reminded that there's still good in this dark world!! :)

@Bi I agree, I am very young but I was always overly mature for my age. I stopped being a child when I was 11. I didn't have a bad life,on a contrary, it's just that I'm an old soul. I have now become a very bitter person and I'm usually very sad but that's just because over these short time I became aware of many things, not only from my own experience but by just observing people and their behavioral patterns, by researching many things that are happening now in this world and wishing I was ignorant. I just can't seem to see point in anything. I'm not like Steven Hawking or Bill Gates, I'm not a brilliant scientist nor am I helping millions of people.

@Intothestorm That is so lovely of you! I love to think that we're all special and unique in our own ways and that there's a God's plan for all of us but I can't seem to find any logic as to why I am here. I'm not influencing others and I don't think I would ever be able to make a change in this world (make others around me happy, or motivate people to be better versions of themselves) This is a very complicated subject and it would be a very long post and I wouldn't want to bother others with my problems. I just hope I'd stop focusing so much on it. :)

Hope is the acceptance of existence itself. Hope will take you where you wish to go. But it cannot be rushed. I am so pleased to talk to you about this.

@notmy - you're so right .. kids are truly magical in the way that they remind us of our soul within .. i'm glad you found great people here on SW ! .. And i'm glad I found you :)

You are still too young to think so. Do something that you love and you would start seeing yourself in a different light.

@coolman, where and when I did say teenagers cannot have problems? I am saying she has a lot of years to do whatever she likes to.

Lies!
You are a wonderful human being with a lot of dreams and a brilliant future awaiting for you
:)

You are powerful enough to make the changes you want in your life

@notmyfaultyourenotoriginal
I agree

@Rowena I agree.I'm glad I found you too!! :)

What is your passion in life?

But it's not tho. Trust me, you'll see.

And about the other comment, which things are you referring to? I don't think there's a big difference in what a 20 year old and a 30 year old person is allowed to do. I'm not sure what you were referring to though.

Parents have been lying to me, they actually told me that life gets better as we age. The worst part is that I believed them and I wanted to be an adult so much. And here I am now complaining haha. :-D

not true . very young things can seem confusing . give yourself some time . if the weather is nice or not get out and see life . don't be blue . smile :-) it adds to you and makes others day . :-) have a good one .

@GoneRogue this was a nice sweet post- up until the god part

-Nevermind, your heart is in the right place and I don't want a pointless argument

@notmyfaultyourenotoriginal
Actually, for me it does get better as I age as I'm able to do things I couldn't do before.

By the way Rowena, you are now doing these things just to hurt and spite me. I have had enough of it...you are now blocked.

@notmyfaultyourenotoriginal
It's what I've learned to do through experience.

Well I can understand that, I agree then, age does bring its own unique ''gifts" with it.. :)

binudistmom stop acting like teenagers cant have a bad life

Jesus has lied to us; we're doomed 😊

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