I Don't Want My Life To Be Meaningless

Hon listen. I am an orphan from Peru my parents murdered when I was 6 months old. I grew up all alone in an orphanage in Lima. No family, no money, no education beyond the orphanage school and I thought no future or a future that no one should want to have. At two months before my 17 birthday things changed in my life so much that I am now living in Israel. I have a job and maybe now a future. I was there at the correct time for this change...I did not will it in fact that change for the better happened on what I thought was the worst day of my life. I wanted to die...understand? The day my life changed and given some meaning was at the end of what I thought was the worst day of my life! You simply cannot see the future. Had I given up and listened to the absolute despair in my heart I would not be here writing you and telling you not to make a mistake I almost may...that of thinking my life was meaningless and over. I was wrong and stupid cause it was not. Please I ask you not to make the mistake in thinking about my life I was making only two years ago.