i remember when i was small and found a lil doll i named B B.used to hold her tight as i watched my mom and dad shoot up. but its Fading Away
i remember saving all my money.and bought me a 400$ car at 17.i ran away from home in it now its Fading Away
then i started stripping saved my money and sent myself through culinary school its Fading Away
did real good had a condo new car ,money in bank.then my mom overdosed ,she was in a coma in hospital i flew up there to see her she hugged me one time the only time and died in my arms but its Fading away
then my dad overdosed a year later,i was alone with no alive family member but its Fading Away
i sunk into a crazy state of suicidal rage.took ,65 vicodans and drank a bottle of wine,was in coma three days but its Fading Away
never got a hold of myself aftet that then met a sweet woman from canada,i love her more than life but it also Faded Away
and now ive lost all i can lose.i have nothing left no hope no dreams.no faith its Fading Away
im homeless right now sitting on a train tresle writing this knowing that its all over i think its time for me to just Fade Away.
You are such a great person. Please do not leave us. You can teach us so much and help so many people because of what all you have been through. You are the most lovely person inside and out that I know. We cannot lose you Kimmy. Please. It would break our hearts. I love you Kimmy and God loves you so much. More than words could ever say or convey. Please don't go away. Please don't hurt yourself. You don't deserve that. You deserve to live and love and be loved. I beg you please don't hurt yourself. You're so talented and beautiful. Society needs you. We need you. No matter how bad you think you are, you're not. God loves you Just the Way You Are and he thinks the very best of you, I promise. God does not look at our failures. He looks at his promises to give us a better life to where we can be happy. He looks at his love for us, his beloved creation. Nothing can separate us from his love. You are so special to his heart and it would break his heart if you decided to take your own life. You can help so many people. And they will love you back. We can see how wonderful and beautiful you are, inside and out. We hear you and the world needs to hear what you have to say because your words are so beautiful and true and pure and honest. We love you Kimmy. I pray God will take all your pain away and give you peace and joy as you deserve. I'm always here if you need to talk to me. Anytime. I wish I could help more. To lose you would be more than we could bear. 🙏🤗❤😭❤❤❤
@KimmyGary and yes. I remember the Carolinas ,it was a very bad time in your life, when E,P closed its doors, I lost contact with you ;i came hear to S,W when i found you some years later,beautiful as ever ,it was a happy day,,now it will be sad if your gone,your friend for ever,,Andy
So well written. I was deeply moved and saddened. As you know, I just wrote something minutes ago to someone. I don’t want my words lost in those replies so I will write to you personally. I felt you too.😔🌺
I'm glad to see you're still here and didn't fade away back then.... you're a talented writer... you manage to conjure up intense images in your readers with just a few words, only a few manage to do that.... I hope you keep writing... it would be great if you would do it here... so I hope you stay, although I understand why you want to leave. Take care of yourself and your soul and stay as strong as you have been all those times 🍀💚
@KimmyGary It was my pleasure to stumble across your post by chance.... it is one of the most beautiful, honest and touching things I have read here in a long time (Y)
After reading your life poem i forgot about my pain,my pain looks so small... Sometimes i also thought that suicide is option to end all pain and today i realised it was all wrong!
The saddest of human experiences are the most heartbreaking to read about. I feel a lot of pain in this and that's no surprise. Wrecked lives. But survival is possible too, and that is what I wish for you.
It's NEVER too late! Everything you have just mentioned only proves it! Hell honey, you're in your 30s and have plenty of time to find a whole new life, as hard as it may seem right now! I'm almost freakin' 50 and I have a hard time envisioning anything anymore...but I still try to! I still grasp at the hope of something good to come! Then a spurt of shine every now and then picks up to survive another day! I see reality for what it is and in my mind, it's hard, deceitful, abrasive....a big kick in my nut sack, but I keep ripping through, sometimes like a mad dog for scraps! Life is about moments, nothing more and nothing less, just moments! It's THEM MOMENTS we have to grasp onto and fight to keep them alive even if they seem to fade a while! I sure relate to your emotions sweets! But ALWAYS remember, YOU ARE NOT ALONE!
Your story is so sad. Yet I believe you have what it takes to pick up the pieces and go on. You did it before and you can do it again. I have faith in you.
I often wonder WHY this life can be so painful. 😕 I just talked to another girl that had parents that shot up and they died. She said she had a sister that was murdered and she too is now alone. 🥀 My heart aches for her and you Kimmy. I LOVE this bittersweet poem you've written here. I too have no family, if not for the kindness of strangers I don't think I'd have lasted this long. I'm sorry I've not been available when you knocked on my door, but want you to know you are in my prayers.🙏🏼 When one door closes I'm praying another one soon opens, please don't shut down and give up! I too know what a broken heart of not having family and loved ones in your life feels like💔, but that's just right now NOT forever. You are so gifted and there's someone just around the corner that would love to know a lovely soul such as yours.💓 Thank you for sharing so much with us.🌟
you have been through too much to give up now. I can't promise things will be better just that they can be better. You are a fighter, fight for yourself with the same zeal you fought for others, and not just physically but mentally and spiritually, not pushing religion here just whatever makes us more than the sum of our parts. Not sure my words reach you or are well-chosen just know an attempt has been made to make a connection and show support.
Everything tried to say something to you...You are still alive, say gratitude to this nature because it wants you to live joyfully on this planet earth! Nothing is needed.
You are worth far to much to just fade away. You are far stronger than most for what you have already endured. Bring your faith back into focus and shine brightly because now is the time for you to start shinning
