i remember when i was small and found a lil doll i named B B.used to hold her tight as i watched my mom and dad shoot up. but its Fading Away
i remember saving all my money.and bought me a 400$ car at 17.i ran away from home in it now its Fading Away
then i started stripping saved my money and sent myself through culinary school its Fading Away
did real good had a condo new car ,money in bank.then my mom overdosed ,she was in a coma in hospital i flew up there to see her she hugged me one time the only time and died in my arms but its Fading away
then my dad overdosed a year later,i was alone with no alive family member but its Fading Away
i sunk into a crazy state of suicidal rage.took ,65 vicodans and drank a bottle of wine,was in coma three days but its Fading Away
never got a hold of myself aftet that then met a sweet woman from canada,i love her more than life but it also Faded Away
and now ive lost all i can lose.i have nothing left no hope no dreams.no faith its Fading Away
im homeless right now sitting on a train tresle writing this knowing that its all over i think its time for me to just Fade Away.
It's NEVER too late! Everything you have just mentioned only proves it! Hell honey, you're in your 30s and have plenty of time to find a whole new life, as hard as it may seem right now! I'm almost freakin' 50 and I have a hard time envisioning anything anymore...but I still try to! I still grasp at the hope of something good to come! Then a spurt of shine every now and then picks up to survive another day! I see reality for what it is and in my mind, it's hard, deceitful, abrasive....a big kick in my nut sack, but I keep ripping through, sometimes like a mad dog for scraps! Life is about moments, nothing more and nothing less, just moments! It's THEM MOMENTS we have to grasp onto and fight to keep them alive even if they seem to fade a while! I sure relate to your emotions sweets! But ALWAYS remember, YOU ARE NOT ALONE!
