I can't help but wonder..How much would I have to drink for it to be lethal? Logically I should have been dead long ago due to alcohol, but sadly I'm still here... I wish I could pass away, but actively trying to do so isn't an option bc I know too much. Like how hanging... (...)
I once called the suicide hotlineAnd when they found out I'd been drinking, they didn't take me seriously at all. Does it really matter if someone's less than sober when they feel depressed enough to call those numbers tho? I ended up feeling like I was worth less, if anything,... (...)
Just so you know i am living in the 90s nowAnything coming from later will probably be unidentified, this is dead serious, i might be lying down and hence irresponsive to alerts for awhile, snoozing ... is there any better response to the stuff going on??!! I didn't think so, snoozes on!!
Looks like we're going to have a very calm weekendJoel's ex wife is coming to get the boys and will keep them overnight. She's been working a lot so it's been a few days since she has seen them. Got both their overnight bags packed and ready to go. She's going to take them to a movie and out for... (...)
Grandma birthday partySo Joel also speaks Spanish and it really gets me excited when he does. Sometimes I think he fakes a phone call just to do it. This was not the case. Last night he was talking to someone and I could tell he was upset. I still don't understand... (...)
Hello one and all.Not much time to spend here today therefore I'll start with a quote. This one is from some random guy who called himself William Shakespeare (1564-1616) who said "Thus we play the fool with the time and the spirits of the wise sit in the clouds and... (...)
These meds for my buddyThese new medications they put my buddy on are really strong I think. He is so tired and out of it right now. Last night he sat outside with us to watch the game and he didn't say a word for over an hour. He barely ate anything for dinner. He... (...)
Everyone is asleep but meSo I decided to have another cigar, a bit more whiskey and sit outside and listen to Frank Sinatra for a while.
Why was I treated so different?I've had some time to really think about things. I was so open and transparent because I wanted this to work. I told you that I had difficult family relationships growing up and 1 in particular still remains challenging. (Which you have witnessed)... (...)
What's something that makes you feel proud of yourself?For me it's when nieces asks me for help bc they trust me enough to ask, and have faith I can help. Like yesterday when oldest niece (14) told me "I need uncle advice!" then asked how to deal with a boy who seems to wanna be more than friends, but... (...)
Today is not a good dayMaybe it’s the weather … grey and menacing Or maybe the fact that I’m nearing my 40tj birthday … been looking into what I have done and what’s left to do in life . I wish I had done things I could be proud of … I did try but my younger self was... (...)
A little introduction A new addition to the family 🙂 This is Buni, when I got her I was told she was a poodle well, she looks more like a Maltipoo. But no matter, she pretty amazing. She got her name because she hops when she takes off running. After a haircut... (...)
Just got home from more gmaw timeThis time we spent 6h at the hospital to make sure she doesn't have a blood clot in her leg. 3 of those hours were just waiting for the blood test results 🙄 Turns out it's "just" an infection, so she got antibiotics. Now I have one hour to catch my... (...)
Friday nightShould be a very fun night We're making homemade pizzas Going to move the tv outside The Royals are playing The Chief's are playing Banana ball is on We're going to make a fire and s'mores Once the kids are in bed whiskey and cigars. I might... (...)
I've gained something valuable from my ice cream escapadesI've gained something valuable from my ice cream escapades - having the correct global refrigeration equipment supplier can completely bring your dessert to the next level! Last summer when I was constructing my little home-made ice cream shoppe, I... (...)
Its not supposed to be this wayLife..loneliness creeps in. Not one person whom i can depend. Stripped bare from the agony of defeat, yet when tears fall, my pillow is all i meet. I push forward, functioning depression. I keep striving for perfection. I lack reasons, no forward... (...)
What is the best music video of the 90s? This is when music videos bloomed, i wish to venture into the fruitful realms here and inaugurate this query with what first comes to mind, a true blue toe tapper Freedom 90 by George Micheal
Outside time already? YES!But before I go, I leave you with this from philosopher, poet, theologian, social critic, and religious author Soren Kierkegaard (1813-1855) who is credited with saying "Life can only be understood backwards; but it must be lived forward." I'll see... (...)
Is it ok to name some members who i really love and appreciate?I'm sorry if this is wrong but i feel that those who have made the SW experience worthwhile deserves some honest feedback, that some schmuck loves them and thanks them for making this place worth visiting in the 1st place Bexsy -- she is the most... (...)
At time's I just love my jobI am a stripper at a bar. this one man he comes to the bar and he all was ask for me for some odd reason. He spends $500 so I take him to my old apartment that is out back of the bar. We use it for like a second private room. He all was ask me to... (...)
Are you a forgiving person?I am to a extent. But if they don't want to be forgiven and just think about themselves like most people, then I'm not.
This scared me what happened??Very scary my 2 daughters went to bed hours ago I'm up late so i heard noise in the hallway so basically the 14 year old just came in the sitting room then she asked me where her sister was Basically my heart sunk and I ran to the room to find she is... (...)
Open Letter to the Ladies at SWI have written an open letter (below) to all the women here at sw who have met men who took advantage of them. I met someone here at sw several months ago and I was foolish enough to fall for him. He took advantage of me in that he reeled me in... (...)