Still think about my ex.

I'm still not over my ex and it's been 2 years since we last spoke. I had to end it which was so difficult to do as it had become toxic but I still miss him. I think I actually miss the "having a person" more than having him if I think about it. My heart feels lonely but all of my trust in men has now gone so I won't be getting into another relationship which makes me sad. My Mum says I should get a pet but I'm not sure that's the way forward as I have really low episodes and worry I may not be able to take care of it as sometimes in an episode I can't even take care of myself. I've come here to write about my feelings and my thoughts in the hope it may help in some "cathartic" way.