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Coralmist · 41-45, F
I literally thought I wrote this at the beginning. I have a few posts very similar. I watch old friends getting married, experiencing travel, having kids, etc. while I can barely get a job rn. I have chronic PTSD from excessive domestic violence growing up. It lasted even into adulthood. So I know WHY I'm not doing the things they are, but how do I get OUT of it??? YES it feels like you're stuck. It's a horrible feeling month after month and year after year. It's becoming exhausting inside to endure it, feeling I'm now not worthy of love ...who would stay with me?? So I feel your worries , LITERALLY.
IM GOing to try a new therapist , need someone interactive to give real healing tips.
IM GOing to try a new therapist , need someone interactive to give real healing tips.
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Infamous607 · 51-55, M
@Coralmist
It has nothing to do with your issues. Many, many, many , millions of people get rejected everyday and they have no emotional issues. Being rejected doesn't make you a leper that from now on has to hide in a cave . Getting rejected makes you human. That's life.
It's not your issues, we all have issues. It's you believing you're not good enough and that comes out thru you.
But even within your suffering you are comfortable. Because it's harder and scarier to change.
It's like having a rock in my shoe, I've had it for so long I'm used to it. When it starts to hurt I take some meds. Yeah it makes me walk funny and I'm always complaining about it.
But,
what if I take it out and nothing changes. What if I don't know how to walk right and I end up looking stupid? What if after all that they still don't like me.
No. I think I'll just keep it in there.
Look, change hurts, if anyone , doctor, therapist, Astrologist, priest, .. anyone... Tells you something that sounds easy and makes you feel good...is bullshit... Change takes courage. That's how we grow. And you pay for that growth with discomfort and pain.
But then. You'd be free.
It has nothing to do with your issues. Many, many, many , millions of people get rejected everyday and they have no emotional issues. Being rejected doesn't make you a leper that from now on has to hide in a cave . Getting rejected makes you human. That's life.
It's not your issues, we all have issues. It's you believing you're not good enough and that comes out thru you.
But even within your suffering you are comfortable. Because it's harder and scarier to change.
It's like having a rock in my shoe, I've had it for so long I'm used to it. When it starts to hurt I take some meds. Yeah it makes me walk funny and I'm always complaining about it.
But,
what if I take it out and nothing changes. What if I don't know how to walk right and I end up looking stupid? What if after all that they still don't like me.
No. I think I'll just keep it in there.
Look, change hurts, if anyone , doctor, therapist, Astrologist, priest, .. anyone... Tells you something that sounds easy and makes you feel good...is bullshit... Change takes courage. That's how we grow. And you pay for that growth with discomfort and pain.
But then. You'd be free.
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Spectra · 26-30, F
I understand you’re not crying for help but I’ve been there before. It’s hard not to notice people the same age as you doing all these big things, and feeling like you’ve remained stagnant. Especially if you grew up with them. One thing I’ve learned is that in my case, the idea of being that person who I’m supposed to be is just that an idea. The person we are today is who we’re supposed to be and that’s okay. It’s okay not to be okay. There’s only here, there’s only now. And sometimes those periods are just as important if not more than doing all those big adults things. It’s the time when we analyze who we are? Is this the person we want to be. Who we want in our lives and who we don’t? The true nuances of life. Because once things start moving fast we barely have time to ask those questions.
PinkMoon · 26-30, F
This is why the only social media I use is this website. I have no idea about the details of the people I grew up with or know. I don't feel the need to take pictures to curate a certain image of my life. It's freeing to live off of social media. You're depressing yourself over people who likely wish they had your life but can't turn back because you can't abort living children and divorces are complicated.
As far as what your life would’ve looked like without the trauma you experienced, your life would've been better and easier without it. Research has shown the negative effects of trraumatic upbringings. You were born into a situation that set you back, it's up to you what you do with the cards you were dealt. There is no customer service complaint line for life, what you don't like is up to you to tolerate or change.
As far as what your life would’ve looked like without the trauma you experienced, your life would've been better and easier without it. Research has shown the negative effects of trraumatic upbringings. You were born into a situation that set you back, it's up to you what you do with the cards you were dealt. There is no customer service complaint line for life, what you don't like is up to you to tolerate or change.
Mordechai · 31-35, M
Like an existential weight that's always there in the background?. Like an anxiety that pushes you forward, like you crave the feeling of being anchored and safe but the thought of staying where you are is dreadful?. I think I know that intimately, as I do with dealing with trauma and anxiety in my past. I don't remember much from my childhood either, the mind doesn't record when you're in fight or flight.
I've been pursuing my potential, studying and working hard for years and I find it's hard to connect with people because I'm moving forward or not satisfied with what's around me. its like I crave deep lasting connection and intimacy but until I get where I'm going i still have work to do.
At least that's how I think about it, you're far from alone, people like us are just busy with ourselves x
I've been pursuing my potential, studying and working hard for years and I find it's hard to connect with people because I'm moving forward or not satisfied with what's around me. its like I crave deep lasting connection and intimacy but until I get where I'm going i still have work to do.
At least that's how I think about it, you're far from alone, people like us are just busy with ourselves x
ninalanyon · 61-69, T
A lot of those perfect looking people are living lives of 'quiet desperation' as the Pink Floyd song has it. Don't envy them, and don't stay quiet, be a little louder, be more visible. In my experience people respond well to others who stand out a little from the crowd. I spent a lot of my life being a quiet mostly conformist person. Now I am out as a full time crossdresser and enjoying life, being noticed.
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BlueVeins · 22-25
You've got a good job and you're living independently. For your age, that's a lot and you have a lot of time to figure things out. A lot of people are lonely and sad and expecting to buy a home before you're 30 without family help is not at all realistic. These people buying homes right now often have a lot more help than they're letting on. Don't let it discourage you is all I'm sayin'.
SouthernGuy1987 · 36-40, M
Everyone has their own unique path in life. Life is not a competition amongst each other. Different people want different things and that's perfectly fine. What's most important is that you do what you enjoy and feels right
Live life to the fullest every day and cherish all of the beautiful moments and experiences. We have to make the most of life while we're here ❤
Live life to the fullest every day and cherish all of the beautiful moments and experiences. We have to make the most of life while we're here ❤
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@SouthernGuy1987 😊😊
val70 · 51-55
I don't know what to say. Plenty of us that are on the same spot. Emotionally it's even tougher when you're kicking yourself for the one loved one that got away. Can't be helped though. Think about what you can change and try to do half of that. Personally, I like to do a career change but it's not even certain that they'll want me. Perhaps the main thing is doing something that one likes or even loves. Just that. Day in, day out one needs to have something in ones life that lets one feel better. Perhaps that's why there's always been a market for trashy romantic/erotic novels. I wish you all the best with whatever you'll be feeling in the years to come
Strongtea · 22-25, M
I compare myself to other people all the time and I always feel inadequate. Everyone I know seems more successful and happier than me and honestly I feel so jealous.
I suppose we are who we are though and we’ve just got to try to do the best we can with it. You seem like a really nice person, it may take a while but I’m sure things will work out for you.
I suppose we are who we are though and we’ve just got to try to do the best we can with it. You seem like a really nice person, it may take a while but I’m sure things will work out for you.
MarkPaul · 26-30, M
This seems to be a common background for most people here. I have read the same rendition of this theme, just expressed differently. It seems this is the congregating corral for those of us who have this common life experience. Sadly, this communal experience doesn't lighten the load, shift the burden, or create a softer landing. Yet, there is some perverted satisfaction in recognizing others are experiencing what often seems is reserved for only one.
HobNoblin · 36-40, M
I can almost match what you've said word for word, exactly the same just about. The difference is I've learned not to remotely care. Houses, marriage, children all that. I just don't care. People have that stuff and it just blows up in their faces. They're a part of a system that is corrupt to the core. They're in debt, their homes are threatened every day. In fact they never own those homes, they rent them from the government. Their children can be taken by the state at a whim. Their marriages end in a few years. Their success is built on nothing, they live in a false opulence that can blow away at any instant. I'm happier in an old truck miles out on the desert salvaging a piece of angle iron from a pile of trash. I'm happier because I live apart, I don't participate in anything they do. I've learned that the best thing is to fall thorough the cracks. Of course they'll want to harass you into falling in line but that's only if you try it in a city. If you're out in the wastes where no one goes, no one will ever know or care. Them not caring is a good thing, you're safer that way.
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It’s truly difficult to find anyone that truly listens because everyone is so divided on their works not yours. It’s a fundamental limitation of being human. I hope you soon find the support you deserve
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lovingdead · 36-40, M
You just described my life, you're still young enough to turn it all around, go see a counselor/therapist that can help You get on the right path, most offer sliding scale fees. I wish I had seen one at your age, I had a lot of anger issues and could have used proper counseling.