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MarkPaul
22-25, M
United States
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1st Week of SW
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I Am Coming to Terms With My Childhood
THE 3 X 5 WORLD CREATED AND LOST ONE SUMMER... One lonely summer I remember stumbling on the idea that I could keep myself company by finding something to do on my own. I was a socially awkward kid who was shy and deathly afraid of being "foun...
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22-25, M
4 replies
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Apr 28, 2017
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I Need Therapy
Session 17: A victory emergency... "What happened...?" "I... the thing is... I guess I got invited to a party?" "Oh really...? Wow! I wasn't expecting that. That's good news, right? How come you seem so apprehensiv...
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22-25, M
5 replies
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Mar 25, 2017
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I Often Feel Left Out And Lonely
On Being Unselected... Unselected Never wanted Always left out Feelings of being deficient Not popular drilled into me Behaviorally trained to have low self-esteem Lost and alone; no one wants me One step forward; then, always many steps back Buildi...
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22-25, M
2 replies
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Mar 22, 2017
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I Battle Insecurity
Greetings from the land of insecurity Even when I recognize I am making personal development progress, I allow self-doubt and lingering self-hatred to infiltrate my state of mind. It is easy enough to tell myself, "you are over-reacting,...
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22-25, M
7 replies
39 views
Mar 10, 2017
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I Feel Sad For Complete Strangers
I have noticed him before. He, like me, is often working out alone at the gym. He is neither social nor anti-social. He's an older guy, but not that old. He seems dedicated to his work-outs, but not obsessive or well-built. Tonight, he seemed sa...
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22-25, M
3 replies
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Feb 28, 2017
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I Need Therapy
Session 16: Confronting the memory... "So, the last time, you recalled a memory..." "Yeah, it was more like reliving it." "Well, it's sometimes like that. But, how did it make you feel?" "I guess it made me fe...
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22-25, M
2 replies
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Feb 25, 2017
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I Need Therapy
Session 15: Forcing out a memory... [Later in the session...] "What's the memory? Remember you are safe here." "Me and a friend went skiing for the weekend. He had a contact who got us a resort hotel suite. I drove us up to the ...
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22-25, M
7 replies
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Feb 12, 2017
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I Am So Down And Out
Feeling cast out, like no one likes me, like no one could (ever) like me, like I don't belong, like I repulse people or at the very least bore them, that I haven't been constructed to be with others on any meaningful level, that I am horr...
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22-25, M
21 replies
62 views
Jan 20, 2017
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Is it true... "some things are better left unsaid?"
22-25, M
18 replies
32 views
Jan 7, 2017
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Life
I Need Therapy
Session 14: A sad revelation, a step backwards, and hope... "You know, we would make better progress if you committed to coming to see me on a regular schedule." "I know..." "Well, what have you been up to? Any revelations?...
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22-25, M
6 replies
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Dec 31, 2016
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Is it possible to have a meaningful, purposeful, and fulfilling life without a reciprocal emotional connection with anyone?
WHAT IF... you have zero friends... no one seems to like you... that weighs on your mind (for some reason)... you do function in society and you are not a hermit... but you just can't emotionally connect with anyone. DISCLAIMER: I am not sayin...
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22-25, M
12 replies
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Dec 15, 2016
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Friends & Acquaintances
I Need Therapy
Session 13: I need therapy... "To tell you the truth, I was thinking about you and hoping I would see you before the holidays. I remember this is when you always feel like you need to talk. So, I am glad you are here." "Yeah, I gue...
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22-25, M
2 replies
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Nov 23, 2016
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I Am Feeling Left Out
Constructed to be solitary... I can recognize and acknowledge that I have been making steady progress in my social development journey. Several months ago, I agonized that I interacted with no one on a social level. I described the experience as bei...
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22-25, M
5 replies
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Sep 27, 2016
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I Need Therapy
Session 12: Finding support by feeling unsupported and crying about it... "It's been awhile, a long while..." "Yeah, I guess I know." "So, what's been going on? How are you?" "I think I realized something...
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22-25, M
1 reply
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Aug 22, 2016
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I Am Going to Say Something Controversial
The idea that Donald Trump is a successful businessman is one largely promoted by him and Warren Buffet has disputed the idea. The idea that Donald Trump would keep us safe is one largely promoted by him and the former CIA Director has disputed the i...
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22-25, M
24 replies
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Aug 5, 2016
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I Know Sadness
The sadness that never leaves... It's always there. Sometimes it's active; other times it's idle. It remembers every moment and uses those moments to make its presence and power known even during its down time: The fear of asking ...
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22-25, M
14 replies
55 views
Aug 4, 2016
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I Need More Positive Social Interactions
MAYBE... I can't deny that I have been making slow and steady progress in building more positive social interaction. It's been hard, but it's been enjoyable. I am able to engage in conversations, even initiate some of them. I don...
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22-25, M
6 replies
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Aug 2, 2016
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I Am Going to Say Something Controversial
From an American's perspective, here is why Donald Trump was chosen to lead the Republican Party, instead of some other contender? What some Americans see in DT that make him appear as the best option. [NOW with no censorship] D. Trump offers t...
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22-25, M
18 replies
56 views
Aug 2, 2016
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Is human nature designed to prevent us from progressing beyond our capabilities?
It seems we have built-in speed bumps to prevent us from extending beyond certain capabilities. For example, on an individual level we might be (super) shy which blocks us from becoming too socially active. Likewise, as a human race, we subject ourse...
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22-25, M
10 replies
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Jul 12, 2016
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Community
Could energy be created by concentrating on a collective idea at a precise time?
If it were possible to get a substantive number of people to think about the precise same thing at precisely the same time, would the concentrated electrical impulses that the human brain creates generate any thought-energy that could be felt, collec...
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22-25, M
10 replies
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Jul 11, 2016
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Community
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