How often do you decide if a relationship is worth rebuilding? What do you consider?
In family, friends, love life, etc.
Do you treat it all the same? I would think not. But what is the criteria you have? And can it be measured?
I have always thought that life is a gift, freely given. But when I give love, there is this hope that the one I choose to care for would also care for who and what I prioritize the most. Especially the people I value the most.
If I see they aren't, is where I draw the line. Because if I love someone, I'd care about the people and things he or she cares about too, or at least try to treat them decently enough (even if some of them are horrible and I'd rather not see or hear about).
But I also find myself in the position where a person cares for me, but I burned the bridges with those important to them. Now, that kind of relationship is the hardest to maintain at this point in my opinion. Because I always find myself questioning if they are handling my trust well or are breaking it behind my back.
It is not an easy place to be.
So there, you see the reason for my musings.
The easiest thing to hide and to show is love. The easiest thing to give is care. But why does it feel like aside from me, all the rest suck at showing it? That I found myself forced to adapt and learn to stop myself from showing it too. Hide it and don't offer help unless asked, even if you mean well. Because people will take you for granted or mock you otherwise. This is the adult world, and the children who are watching and experiencing eventually learn the same and follow the steps, it hurts.
But it's become partly about survival and protecting one's heart.
When and how did it become this way?
If talked about, would you even say it is right?
How do you survive? How do you live?
I really just want to understand how to live.
Do you treat it all the same? I would think not. But what is the criteria you have? And can it be measured?
I have always thought that life is a gift, freely given. But when I give love, there is this hope that the one I choose to care for would also care for who and what I prioritize the most. Especially the people I value the most.
If I see they aren't, is where I draw the line. Because if I love someone, I'd care about the people and things he or she cares about too, or at least try to treat them decently enough (even if some of them are horrible and I'd rather not see or hear about).
But I also find myself in the position where a person cares for me, but I burned the bridges with those important to them. Now, that kind of relationship is the hardest to maintain at this point in my opinion. Because I always find myself questioning if they are handling my trust well or are breaking it behind my back.
It is not an easy place to be.
So there, you see the reason for my musings.
The easiest thing to hide and to show is love. The easiest thing to give is care. But why does it feel like aside from me, all the rest suck at showing it? That I found myself forced to adapt and learn to stop myself from showing it too. Hide it and don't offer help unless asked, even if you mean well. Because people will take you for granted or mock you otherwise. This is the adult world, and the children who are watching and experiencing eventually learn the same and follow the steps, it hurts.
But it's become partly about survival and protecting one's heart.
When and how did it become this way?
If talked about, would you even say it is right?
How do you survive? How do you live?
I really just want to understand how to live.
