What are some traumatic things you went through as a child ?

My mother couldn't adequately fight her demons. Drugs, sex and violence were constants. I was put on the register before birth.

I spent most of my childhood in care as a result. Last time I lived at home I was 11.

That built huge anger and resentments. But it made me fiercely independent and strong willed.

The cliché is of course that I in turn became an addict myself and lived almost an identical life as I used drugs and drink to obliterate those emotions.

Luckily I got it and got help. But the scars still are there.

War, loved ones lost, starvation, homelessness, racism, misogyny , extreme parental abuse, poverty, sexual abuse..etc etc etc.

I would have been horrible person if I didn't have my grandparents later.

I guess I deal with them one day at a time.

Essentially trauma weekly, every week, throughout my whole childhood. 😢 Despicable words spewn at me from my narcissist parent..saying I was the
* reason*for their problems. At just three. She left a neighbor to look after me for about an hour outside, and I went in without them, at three, and fell backwards down the stairs at the top step. I gouged my eye badly at the bottom. I remember a lot of blood.

But more than that it was the screaming in my face, saying 'dont be lazy' if I even read a BOOK. 🫨 Bullying me about where I left some papers on the table. And one night really stands out... I was about seven and had asked a question while they were near the stove...they started RAGING at me that 'Cant you SEE what I'm doing?!! Why do t you pick the right TIME??' ANd if I said something to defend myself, they yelled Who do you think you are? I don't listen to You, you listen to ME and that's it. It was hell. Just an utter nightmare. I have PTSD today from it, crippling anxiety, and do t ever date because I felt I was a broken horrible being. 😢

I wouldn't necessarily call it traumatic, but I was bed-ridden four years as a child. Going back to school, finding the tomboy girls of third grade had hips and things in 7th grade, and having learned no social skills with peers after living with only adults was a challenge. I compensated by being a nerd, an over-achiever, getting involved in practically everything.

Then my second day in high school, we moved some 400 miles and I transferred to in a new high school where I knew no one, and it was even more cliquish than most. The first few days I wandered the halls during lunch. Then I ran into another guy doing the same, asked if he was new also, and he said "no, have lived here all my life, gone to school with all these people since kindergarten". I thought this is stupid, and the next day joined the chess club, the science club, and was off on the over-achiever track again, listed in the school's Hall of Fame in my senior yearbook.

Nothing bad happened to me. I feel the odd one out.

I came into the world surrounded by people love me. My grandparents were a farming family so I played in woods, in fields and on a bronze age barrow. We had open air parties and lots of special occasions.

I guess the one thing that makes me sad is they are no longer with me…

Had a murder across the street and police were looking for the subject in our shed. Guns drawn. I was 5. Guessing it was domestic abuse but back then I thought we were all in danger.

Our house burned and we lost all of our material possessions on my birthday. It had a positive effect on me, because I learned not to value material things very much.

When I was little my father was wife and kid beater.

When I was 5 he punched me in head, knocked me unconscious and caused me to have a grand mal seizure. Ever since that day on I've been living with epilepsy.

All because of scarring that punch left on my brain.

Lost roughly 30 plus friends to guns in 25 years. Try not to think about it.

Horror. And I'm not okay .

I've already discussed these things on here

That's a long effed up story

You want to know about my psyche now? ☠