I am terrified. This year is the darkest year of my life.

It has been 6 months since my husband passed away. I still missed him so much.
I am crying again. I wished he is still alive with me.

I am very worried about the cost of living because I don't have a job to support myself. I am terrified. I applied and attended interviews but I haven't got hired. Jobs are scarce in my area.

I have enrolled in a 19 hour full-time course but I don't think it will help me to reduce the council tax.

I decide to sell the house next year as I can't afford the house and bills. I feel suffocated.
Hopefully, my nightmare will end after I sell the house.

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GoFish · 41-45, F

maybe you can keep the house and rent out a room or part of the house?

WanderingHelplessly · 51-55, MNew

@GoFish Good idea. I never thought of that.

Arrow17 · F

@GoFish I scare to rent out the whole house to people. My house had been trashed by tenants. I prefer to sell and put everything in the storage. I will do some research where is the best to move abroad.

AdmiralPrune · 46-50, M

Oh my. You’re going through something I can’t and don’t want to imagine.

I am so very sorry for your loss.

I understand you are now dealing with challenges that you always thought you would tackle as a team together. They must seem so much bigger.

Please take care of yourself, allow your self time and protect yourself from those daily things that drag us down. I don’t believe you will ever “go back to normal”. But I hope you find a job that’s right for you soon, and you find some semblance of peace.

Keep your friends and family close, and talk whenever you feel the need.

Arrow17 · F

@AdmiralPrune I don't have any body in this world. I had my husband the only one who cared about me.

My mom is a toxic person. She won't give me any emotional support. She cuts me off from all my relatives because I am shame.

AdmiralPrune · 46-50, M

@Arrow17 That’s tough indeed. Get some ad vice from the job centre. Be sure to ask about charges before using a recruitment agency.

Don’t worry about what the job is, go for it. It’s always easier to change jobs when you have one. And with a little money in you pocket you’ll find things become more manageable.

Jennysubmits · 51-55, T

I am so sorry for your loss and situation. I really wish that governments would provide financial support for people in your situation. They have no problems when it comes to financing wars. I hope you find the help you need x

WanderingHelplessly · 51-55, MNew

Is there anyone or any assistance programs you can use?

Arrow17 · F

@WanderingHelplessly I don't have anybody here. No friends and blood relatives.

WanderingHelplessly · 51-55, MNew

@Arrow17 Is there not assistance programs?

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