It's so painful to lose my husband.

I feel so painful that I live a life without my husband.
I went to bereavement group and I didn't feel like it helped me.
The probate isn't helping me at all, I feel trap in the place that I don't want to stay anymore. I want to travel as a backpacker but probate holds me here. I hate this feeling.

I felt better when I was in the church.

I cry every time I remember my late husband kindness. I try to remember happy memories with him but those don't make me feel good or happy. It makes me feel deeply sad. I want to go with him as well.

I wish I could swap position with him when he was very ill in the hospital.

My heart is dying with him.

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whowasthatmaskedman · 70-79, MVIP

It doesnt have to be a death that separates you from a spouse. My wife is in care with dementia. And it has reached the point where I have completely lost who she was. But she is still here and I still owe who she used to be all the love and loyalty she ever deserved, and I feel the need to visit her most days, even though she can be verbally aggressive at times. Although older, I would love to "move on" but I cant. I need to stay close..Abandoning her after 50 years is just not an option..😷

Hairlover · 41-45, F

Im a widow also and if you want to talk im here

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Hairlover · 41-45, F

@Arrow17 i had to almost anything to pay the bills

Arrow17 · F

@Hairlover I wish I could get a temporary job but it's impossible.

Hairlover · 41-45, F

@Arrow17 i even had to sell my hair

Confined · 56-60, M

Hugs

GoFish ·

sorry 😐

Justmeraeagain · 56-60, F

I truly understand and I am sorry

Bonby2 · 61-69, M

I am so very sorry for you pain .I wish I could help but I understand no one really can you must grieve one day at a time

PatientlyWaiting25 · 46-50, F

So sorry you're having to walk this journey too. I lost my husband in August 2024 to a sudden and unexpected brain hemorrhage. I don't think grief ever goes away, it's the price we pay for loving and being loved so much. I am having more good days lately, I think, with time, we learn to build our lives around the grief so it no longer feels like it's all you know. I also tried a bereavement group and decided it wasn't for me but my church family has been a massive support, it sounds cliche but one day at a time. Hugs and prayers for you ❤ xx

swirlie · 31-35, F

Regardless of probate, you really must pack that backpack of your's and walk away from it all. Nothing will proceed without you, nor will you hinder the process by leaving.

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