To anyone who has felt they are non-existent

You feel it, you breathe and process it differently, you learn to control the nervous system.

For me situations would trigger me,,I’ve had to learn slowly, instead of losing control, you sit with it and find peace instead of allowing it to take over you and your thoughts.

You are not the trauma, that’s a memory, it’s in the past, once you understand that, what other people did to you, it isn’t who you are, that was their issue not yours, you don’t need to carry that weight.

Remove it, unpack the bags of pain and get rid of it, you don’t need to carry that around anymore.

Takes time but you can heal and find peace. 🥰✨

I think I started feeling better about myself when I distanced myself from certain negative situations and people and when I started a self care journey, and a better relationship with myself. Like realized it's my life, and that's what I matter to myself. Im still healing but it's better now.

Jesus. God tells me I am created in his image. That I am fearfully and wonderfully made and that he knew me when he knitted me together in my mother's womb. We can't change the past and the things that other humans have done to us but we can know who we are in Jesus. I check every thought that comes into my head and ask, Does it reflect the truth of how Jesus created me and what his plans for me are in the future? If it's a no, then I know the thought is a lie.

I can't even comprehend what it's like to have that feeling of self. For the longest time I thought this emptiness was normal. I had no idea there was anything more to existing.

when you don't exist what is there to heal, I have a feeling you have not met it at its end yet

Meditation teaches you about the emptiness of existence. It's a wonderful feeling.