My body hates me for real. I'm not going to be able to be a mother it's not going to be possible I fear

Sometimes I momentarily wonder the same. My periods are messed up too. I won't know until I cross that hurdle, should I even want to.
I know how disheartening it is when your body goes through endless strains. Rest and repair is all I can say. It's hard to know what the next step is when you're mentally exhausted or drained. Advocating for yourself and your health isn't a easy process but it's worthwhile.

Try the following dr. Sebi's nutritional guide it heals many things it might be about toxin build up. Or yea maybe you missed the boat. Or try the ultimate remedy drink blood from a living cow a pint to quart should do it. No promises but theres considerable evidence.

Same. I ended up being extremely grateful that I can't have kids.

I think Mr. Patel just might have the magic elixir you need? May I send him your way?

What does your physician say?

See a doctor\gyno?