I Am Very Lonely And Unfulfilled

I know that I've got a streying heart, no I don't flirt, no I don't go for coffee dates with other men, no I'm not having some sort of love affair....but I am curious about knowing and loving other men and developing crushes on a couple of handsome men. This is just as bad as flirting, dating and having a full blown love affair. I wish it wasn't so, I wish I would't even have a wondering eye and a streying heart.....It's because my husband isn't in love with me. I'm so tired of trying to focus all of this romantic love on him when its rarely reciprocated.

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twistedrope · 26-30, M

[youtube=https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LwkO1y4bTEE] This song is currently playing for me. Listen with headphones or have the volume blow away everything.

Now, certain things become impossible to put up with. Lackluster Love is one of them. But it is a suffering you must suffer in a dignified manner. Create and live for something or someone else if you wish to take action but if your heart wavers, do not. Another path will open.

There is no need to be so brazen in your intentions with other men. What occurs, will occur and you will be faced with a decision then. I say, relax and talk. Be relaxed with your talking. Say to yourself, you are suffering, and don't repeat it. "I know." Should be the dismissive reply to whoever else tells you so. That is, all I think. Epitaph has finished playing to me, good luck.

SW-User

I completely relate xx

Arorin · M

It takes two to tango, I hope your life goes the direction you are looking for.

polyandrym66 · 70-79, M

I have always lived a POLYANDRY lifestyle, and found that woman NEED more than one man in their sex life at the same time. You are not weird or abnormal in your desires. It is just that society has taught us that monogamy was the answer to satisfy our libido, and it is rarely true..
This is the Christmas season where you allow your wishes to be aired..
So go ahead and seek other lovers while you are married..
Just let him know of his failings and what you are doing about it.
If he still loves you, he will become a good cuckold husband for you..

schizosaint · 41-45, F

@polyandrym66 I am not into other men sexually...That would feel gross.

polyandrym66 · 70-79, M

@schizosaint I'd not for everyone.. Good luck on your journey..

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schizosaint · 41-45, F

@SageAdvice I need love and stability and family over a string of romances.

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schizosaint · 41-45, F

@SageAdvice I've just got to deny myself and do what is right and not get too down on myself that my honeymoon is over.

Pfuzylogic · M

Joyce Meyers would give you some very good bearing on this. You don't want to make provision for sin. Make sure you get advise from the Godly that can point you to scripture about your choices.

schizosaint · 41-45, F

@Pfuzylogic its not ever put into action, I usually avoid men whom I find myself attracted to so that these feelings don't develop......but like somebody said it really is an internal conflict that I've been dealing with for a long time.....Jesus was the one who brought it to my attention that I do these things by inspiring movies about my life....I just wish I could recondition myself or make it stop some way some how, but I realized that its a part of me to love like that so I tried focusing that love on my husband and well....You know how he treats me in return.....So Im sad that such a big part of my heart feels like its dying that Ill never taste romantic love ever again since my husband wont give it to me.....thats why I fear that my heart would strey and in little ways it does. Then we have another movie about it and the cycle continues.

Raymuundo · 46-50, M

I wouldn't feel guilty until you have done something wrong.

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