When do you feel the most alone?

When I'm stressed because no one understands why.

At 4am when I'm awake and thinking about shit.

On sw

When someone I love says something that is negative about me in the slightest way. Can even be a joke. A joke that is a number 1 on the burn register, whereas I would normally go for like 3rd degree burns in my jokes about others. Sometimes when one of these people I love says something disparaging or derogatory about me it’s like they’ve ripped out my heart and given it to a dog to eat. And I’m still talking to them but I’m watching this dog eat my heart. In that moment, I wish I were dead. Love doesn’t exist in the world. There’s only this all consuming darkness that stretches endlessly. and I’m as scared as I was as a child lying on the floor of my bedroom, having fell out of the top bunk of our bunkbeds in the middle of the night, screaming for my parents in the pitch black darkness of our room, but no-body is coming.

At bedtime. When I stop my routines. And I think. That is when.

At work because I’m away from my babies

When I'm stuck in a room filled with other people.

When I need help and there's no one to turn to.

When I’m on this site

The more family members are home the more alone I feel.

After a great hanging out with friends

When I’m not busy or in bed thinking before sleep

When I’m afraid

When I’m in trouble..

When I’m in pain.

When im sad

all the time

Not very often.