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SnailTeeth · 36-40
I could've easily been Valedictorian, and I never knew how close I was.
My final year was my best year, but I graduated a year early through summer correspondence.
I didn't really think much about substances. I had one best friend, that's all I really needed.
I wanted to save myself for marriage.
I had a job, I paid my dad rent, I did all the cleaning in the house (no mom around).
And I was a total dork.
I still am.
Funny thing is, my grandparents thought I was stealing their booze.
My family thought that because I'd spend all night with my gf, it meant we were sleeping together.
They wouldn't even let me pay rent to live at home.
Kicked out at 16.
It was absurd.
Not just kicked out, but I'm not going to get into the nitty gritty of how dark people can be.
Life's crazy.
Here I was, thinking I'd probably be making 6 figures in my 20's. Hopefully.
And I'm still waiting to make that; 20 years later.
It's not like I haven't worked 80 hour weeks until burnout.
I've come close to 6. I've had good jobs that offered the potential.
But sometimes if life's too good, you don't see your own naivety.
I'm just glad I never went back home. I think it would've been worse if I'd indentured myself.
People are tricky, and what wins is truth inevitably, but it has to come from a place of kindness.
I never knew what kindness truly was, until I had time to myself, for myself.
My final year was my best year, but I graduated a year early through summer correspondence.
I didn't really think much about substances. I had one best friend, that's all I really needed.
I wanted to save myself for marriage.
I had a job, I paid my dad rent, I did all the cleaning in the house (no mom around).
And I was a total dork.
I still am.
Funny thing is, my grandparents thought I was stealing their booze.
My family thought that because I'd spend all night with my gf, it meant we were sleeping together.
They wouldn't even let me pay rent to live at home.
Kicked out at 16.
It was absurd.
Not just kicked out, but I'm not going to get into the nitty gritty of how dark people can be.
Life's crazy.
Here I was, thinking I'd probably be making 6 figures in my 20's. Hopefully.
And I'm still waiting to make that; 20 years later.
It's not like I haven't worked 80 hour weeks until burnout.
I've come close to 6. I've had good jobs that offered the potential.
But sometimes if life's too good, you don't see your own naivety.
I'm just glad I never went back home. I think it would've been worse if I'd indentured myself.
People are tricky, and what wins is truth inevitably, but it has to come from a place of kindness.
I never knew what kindness truly was, until I had time to myself, for myself.
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WillaKissing · 56-60
@SnailTeeth I need the love of God (Everyone choose your own religion or not) truth, kindness, and justice.
I am not down on myself heck I have had a greatly successful career retirement, and fatherly duties accomplished, and I have been blessed enough to make myself into the person I am today.
I have several lifetimes of crap stored in my head of all the terrible things I had to do and experience, and not enough love, compassion, and acceptance returned to me to outweigh the bad. Losing my son on 10-21-2019 to suicide from a career path I had nearly killed me. And I am just recovering and moving forward from that. I started the VA Counseling January of 2022, so it is just a recovery and moving forward process.
I am not down on myself heck I have had a greatly successful career retirement, and fatherly duties accomplished, and I have been blessed enough to make myself into the person I am today.
I have several lifetimes of crap stored in my head of all the terrible things I had to do and experience, and not enough love, compassion, and acceptance returned to me to outweigh the bad. Losing my son on 10-21-2019 to suicide from a career path I had nearly killed me. And I am just recovering and moving forward from that. I started the VA Counseling January of 2022, so it is just a recovery and moving forward process.
SnailTeeth · 36-40
@WillaKissing I misinterpreted it as a resentful acceptance.
It made me think of Olympian Dave Schultz.
Just because you're intelligent in a way that can't immediately be defined, didn't mean you weren't a scientist in your own discipline. Every path begins with a pioneer.
It made me think of Olympian Dave Schultz.
Just because you're intelligent in a way that can't immediately be defined, didn't mean you weren't a scientist in your own discipline. Every path begins with a pioneer.
WillaKissing · 56-60
@SnailTeeth Not resentful in the least, I just took what life gave me at every juncture and turned it into a positive. I do regret losing my son tremendously though.
As far as the military and all that occurred there, I am proud and happy I served without regrets, and that is it. It gets hard when people stop me and say thank you for serving our country when wearing an army hat or shirt or my vehicle license plates. I say thank you humbly and want to move on, I respect their gratitude, but all that flashes in my head are the combat scenes and such right down to the night my son died. And that is when the sadness sinks in and I do not know what to say or how to react from that moment on.
As far as the military and all that occurred there, I am proud and happy I served without regrets, and that is it. It gets hard when people stop me and say thank you for serving our country when wearing an army hat or shirt or my vehicle license plates. I say thank you humbly and want to move on, I respect their gratitude, but all that flashes in my head are the combat scenes and such right down to the night my son died. And that is when the sadness sinks in and I do not know what to say or how to react from that moment on.
TexChik · F
I homeschooled. Mom was a retired professor. She didn't give me number grades for my work, but I did have to master it. The state tests I had to take to prove I was being homeschooled properly were given every few months. I never heard anything about them. When I went to college, I graduated with a 4.0.
Pitsilizater · 31-35, M
WillaKissing · 56-60
@Pitsilizater But how is the economy in Greece today? All I have seen in the news was bad news is why I asked.
Pitsilizater · 31-35, M
@WillaKissing It is and will always be shit, because those who get elected repeatedly are traitors that sold off the country's assets. Most Greeks are like zombies, when looked at from the outside, only caring about society and pretending to be hard working Christians, paying half their taxes (unless they work for the government) and not really working, (there are almost no good jobs available and those that become available get mostly taken by "friends" of the government). Western Europeans love coming here and living in our houses for the equivalent of pennies to them.
DearAmbellina2113 · 41-45, F
WillaKissing · 56-60
@DearAmbellina2113 God Bless you.
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akindheart · 61-69, F
WillaKissing · 56-60
@akindheart I expected nothing less from you Luv! 💓
WillaKissing · 56-60
@MarineBob Me too, that kept me eligible to play sports.
WillaKissing · 56-60
@deadteddy Nice GPA for you!
Tennessean · 31-35, F
WillaKissing · 56-60
@Tennessean Congrats.
