Positivity for once!Again for more of this diary like thingy, I guess cats do really help, even tho times have been tough , the people here, my cats and online friends (as outside I don't, have any real friends) have really cheered me up, I can't wait to go to my final... See More »
I hate this feelingWhy am I starting to hate sitting alone? I always loved being alone. I hate when people come to me. I need my spaces but it feels so sad, whenever I try they all just stay quiet or avoid sitting at my table, ignore me, I hate that. I despise that,... See More »
I'm starting to feel pity for myselfI see all the other people sitting with friends and knowing which friend group they're in, even at school. For how much I love being alone sometimes it makes me cry, or generally upset, I'm afraid people think I'm boring, anyone barely talks to me... See More »
Autistic strugglesI love being alone and I hate FEELING lonely, I am not sad being alone, but I'm not too happy about being distant, if someone comes near me I may ask for space or for them to go or i might get angry, although I'm very polite if someone offers me... See More »
Calming downSeems like days are going slower and the same everyday, but atleast it's nicer , I hope it stays that way, my parents still fight , I'm only so lucky my room has thick walls so it's hard to hear. I have a school excursion soon, hoping that'll get my... See More »
Proper tears (Triggers : SelfHarm, Suicide, Emetophobia)I relapsed once more, I couldn't mask any time more I had to cry, so here I am crying like a baby, I hate when my mother neglects how I feel and just says "I had worse", then wonders why I never talk to her, and I'm suffering both puberty and the... See More »
Thank yallThanks for all who help and support me out during these hard times even in the site, this is the help I've never properly received and it's like an online hug <3 this is mostly a vent page because I don't have a lot, so seriously thanks to all of you... See More »
I seriously am about to give upI'm so scared of death, but I can't take this anymore. I can only vent here and it's painful but people atleast listen, I barely have one or two friends in real life and I almost always stay closed in my room crying about how ill never be seen as a... See More »
I can't do this anymore.I wake up wishing I could feel better but I never do, each day is always the same, I don't like when routines are interrupted but I hate when they're identical. I cannot take the stress any longer, it has me on choke hold, I wish I didn't suffer from... See More »
