I'm starting to feel pity for myself

I see all the other people sitting with friends and knowing which friend group they're in, even at school. For how much I love being alone sometimes it makes me cry, or generally upset, I'm afraid people think I'm boring, anyone barely talks to me and sure I like that, I hate interaction when not needed, but at the same time it makes me feel like shit knowing people think I'm boring. I feel worthless to my mom, I feel like I'll never make her happy with whatever I ever do. No matter what I do ill never make anyone truly happy and my opinion is always ignored, my speech, everything, I always said I wanted to be alone not feel alone