Sorry, I can't feel sympathy for you. You picked him, you accepted him, you gave him your love, you quenched his selfish ego. Was it that hard to realize he was a narcissist before you got into a relationship with him...? There are tons of really good guys out there, so it gets tiring to hear women always whining about the jerks they picked up instead... Sorry I guess I'm not in a good mood...

I was in a relationship with one for 16 years. I felt the same way when I finally left. You will find yourself again. You will undo all the weird trips he put into your head. All you need is time. Life will get infinitely better and easier. I'm sure counseling would help, but I didn't go that route. I worked hard, kept myself busy, and I talked with friends.
I no longer hate him. I have a happy and nice life.
I promise, you will too.

Be kind to yourself. If you can, go to a therapist that specializes in PTSD

Can’t say I have - but I’ve watched those kinds of videos. I think just start with little things to build yourself up. Go out and seek people to be around that has nothing to do with him. It’s going to take a while but every little step is one in the right direction, give yourself some time to do this. Good luck.

I've had a few major bullies in my life. One thing that has helped me has been making fun of them. Ridicule is one thing they cannot fight. Even if you choose not to ridicule them to their faces, you can still think of them as if they were comic characters in a TV sit-com. You can even give the show a name and put in an imaginary laugh track. Think of them as comic characters, kind of like George Lopez's mother in the sit-com of the same name; she is perfectly AWFUL and that is a key part of the humor. Seeing the funny side of these human demons makes them much easier to face and deal with.

Just don't make yourself a victim. Too many people forever make themselves into the victim even if they got out. They incessantly talk about it and then suddenly their lives are better, when in reality they have their own hang-ups that are buried, because suddenly they're free from the problem.

well you are grieving you have started your angry your hurtit is all part of it ,you will have to go through the process,we all do there is no way round it ,there no rules, no easy way, we all do it a little differently, you share with close friend talk it out,honestly though its down to you .i wish i could be more positive,you will get pasat it you will better person for it, all of which is no consolation to you now. 🤗 i feel you

America! Been 3yrs now.. 🤷‍♀️

I did spend many years around my mother who was a fierce fighting bully. I was so traumatized by her it took me years to build up any confidence at all. I am still a very nervous person.

[i][c=#BF0080]Yep, close to 20 years. It’s seriously draining, even after. [/c][/i]