No, I think we all have a finite amount of time, where we seek and search for those we love, and watching people older than me I love suffer, I learned gratitude and love more from when they died. It's a silly notion in this world, the longer we live that it's a measure of society bettering itself while we have more people looking for love and meaning than we ever did before.
You want the honest truth. Sometimes I wish I would die soon.
I know the physical pain my body is going to be facing in the next few years. I'm already having problems moving, but I force myself to work and keep up and out work teenagers & 20 year olds.
Right now I can barley move or walk and I refuse to take aspirin or anything to relieve pain.