Heads up Dan there are folks out here that know your worth. When this happens concentrate on your painting and games.

Depression has many causes, both environmental like due to events, but also physical causes.

I myself have comorbid depression with my OCD.

Medication help, as does therapy. A combination being most effective.

I have had CBT before, it works.
One thing is cognitive distortions.
You're doing that right now by saying you'll be alone your whole life. This is crystal balling and catastrophizing

Maybe start journalling these thoughts.

Those figures you make are there other people out there making them?
Perhaps a group/ club you could join?
Just an idea, they look really good.
I'm not much of an expert, not really a nerd,but I'm sure there must be others out there that share your interests.

Pretty much everyone goes through that to different degrees. It's a part of life as a human. So, you might as well get used to it. It seems as though you are fishing for sympathy which is not necessarily bad or wrong... if you can acknowledge that is what you are doing. Otherwise, that empty void you feel will never be satiated.

Ok Dan... I'm not going give a long explanation for help with your situation and depression. Cause you've heard it before. The whole projecting and fishing for pity, is NOT going to help bud. There is help out there....for your sake, seek it.

First of all, don't apologize for the symptoms of your illness. Ever. Okay? Secondly, ignore the haters like @Levenrack who don't understand how depression works. But third? Please, my friend, seek counseling. It's not always easy to find, but it's worth it if you do.

You're not alone, trust me🤗

I think that’s a lot more normal than you realise.

Need a job. For a week, come join us on the family farm for a few days out in the fields. We're pepping the land for ginseng

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Don’t u have friends or family?