5th day of journaling... and yes, it completely sounds that I'm in the phase of depression of my bp2. Damn. And also, now I know what I'm fearing..A co worker today told me (unbeknownst to them) how the attendings (my superiors) noticed how different I am... how tired/unfocused/forgetting, I am. They are planning to give me a 03 days rest but she didn't want me to tell me until they're sure it... See More »
I'm back... prolly in another cycle of my BP2.It's been a while, Job's taking over But now I'm back... I used to journal here about my newly discovered bipolar. I was hypomanic (or neutral) but now for sure I'm neither. My mood has become constantly low and all I'm thinking of is to check yet... See More »
Over sharingI flet like sharing something personal. I was recently diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Over the past year, I’ve been going through crazy highs (manic episodes), super low lows (depression), and even some hallucinations. It’s been a lot, but... See More »
Mania activated- being bipolarSo this year has been a tough one for me with a lot of ups and down and recently it’s been mainly downs but last two days manic mode has been activated so much I feel on such a high it’s driving me mad. I just thought after my little holiday with... See More »
Letters to myself 02 (from my hypomanic to my depressed self)Hello there, me. Today I had an important presentation that required confidence, sharp analysis and good public speaking skills. I had all of them, and was told I was brilliant. Outwardly, I was happy and even a bit embarrassed because I am not... See More »
Letters To My Future SelfIn the event of my recently diagnosed bipolar type II, I am thinking about building a bridge between my hypomanic and depressed self, because honestly, when I'm depressed I would never recognize the hypomanic me, I would feel like it is so... See More »
I went to get a second opinion. A long journey is ahead of me.I mentioned in a an earlier post that I was diagnosed by Bipolar disorder T2 (where the mania is so subtle but the depression is important) and the consult was short and she gave me medication. I was skeptical and wanted a second opinion. I am... See More »
I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder type II.Damn, I knew it. I suspected it, and I went to see a psychiatrist today and damn it, even though I thought it was a possibility, it is really hard to deal with this new information. I always thought I had a joyful personality with a hint of... See More »
