Here is a conversation with my sister... she doubts (cause we brought it up before).... I risked alluding to it.

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You were so exhausted yesterday you slept so early

Yeah, and woke at 06 AM to finish some work stuff

Yep, I've been told you were in a good mood when you got up, you needed the rest

Well, I was just pretending because I can't look down the way I feel

Oh, you are feeling depressed lately?

So what? Are you gonna roll your eyes and say : here comes the depression like it happened last year and the years before? (I had 04 episodes of major depression the padt 5 years, but undiagnosed)

No, not at all... I'm just wondering and seeing if it bipolar ! (Oops !!)

So, what if it is?!

Noo, but dont let it be something like that

Why?

I can't handle having chronic diseases in the family :(

What if it is diabetes or schizophrenia or cancer for that matter?

No, please. I keep praying none of that happens. It hurts me to see the people I love hurting.

That s childish lol

Well, it is not about me, i just dont like them to suffer. What if something make them stop medication for some reason, they'll really suffer and I don't want this for them...

And then the phone rang for some reason...