It is the third day of antidepressants for my bipolar type 2

I should celebrate, right?
Who thought I'd be in this position one day?

Sometimes all of this feels like a dream.

I am mourning my childhood and younger adulthood... apparantly I had dysthymia and wasn't aware.

And also mourning my hypomania... the moments I felt like I loved myself for the first time. That the resort to intense emotional pain wasn't words of (I want to give up life)... where I felt aligned with my values in general, sharp and quick and productive at work. I went to a couple therapists during those periods (because I felt I was different) but after 2-3 sessions they said I'm off to go cause I had logical, well aligned, wise answers to everything and to every issue I presented to them lol.

I don't know what to wait for in the future... will my baseline mood be better?
Will it be back to the times I always felt low?

There is so much confusion

I hope I'm not exaggerating this whole fiasco.

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LadyGrace ·

I certainly do not feel your exaggerating. I appreciate your honest feelings and not being afraid to tell us. This way we can pray for you and I truly believe that if you keep taking your meds for depression and all, they'll have time to kick in and do even better for you so you feel like you have a more normal life. I'm proud of you for taking these steps. Keep up the good work, I'll keep praying for you.

PhoenixPhail · M

@LadyGrace That works better for me than the original Serenity Prayer. Thank you for posting it. 🫂

LadyGrace ·

@PhoenixPhail 🫂 ❤ You're welcome, friend.

TryingtoLava

I got bipolar 1 so i feel you i legit went to the hospital last month cuz my med combo wasnt good and once you get on the right doses and stuff life returns to normal :) i still get overly emotional but part is my personality and part is it so hang in there it gets better i promise <3

Friendlyperson · 26-30, F

@TryingtoLava Oh dear. I'm so sorry about that. I am glad you are in a place when you can promise things will get better. You should be proud of yourself.
Issue with me is that nobody knows except two of my friends who are now currently dealing with some serious issues. So basically I have no one to talk this through except online... it is kind of scary at times, but so far I'm only praying I'll deal with it wisely and do no reckless decisions.

TryingtoLava

@Friendlyperson i get it i never even shared that on SW for lots of years cuz i felt embarrassed and thought peeps would think im 'crazy' then i was like idc im me and hey if you ever feel like youre a danger to yourself call for help theres nothing wrong with reaching out to professionals when you start to drown heres my experience
https://similarworlds.com/groups/similar-worlds/5310464-Im-freeeee-and-back-to-me-3

onrealityofdreams · M

I don't feel you're exaggerating. You're showing concern and a desire to get to the bottom of that which is disruptive to your life.
Most people are not capable of doing what you're doing.

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onrealityofdreams · M

@TryingtoLava Thank you!

Friendlyperson · 26-30, F

@onrealityofdreams Wow thank you.
Most of my posts here are just me talking about bipolar so it took me a long while to actually accept to live with it... that s why I said it feels surreal at times.
But thank you for your words, they are so encouraging.

onrealityofdreams · M

@Friendlyperson You're welcome.
If I may I would like to offer this. Don't ever feel like you are strange, odd, or less human for being bipolar. The fact that you are open about it and as I said being concerned about it shows you are stronger than most of the people who view themselves as 'normal'.

PhoenixPhail · M

No, I don't think you're exaggerating this. In your third day of antidepressants, and, maybe within the first several weeks, I think you may notice many changes.

Congratulations for being willing to try something radically different.
One way or another, I think you're going to be fine.

FrogManSometimesLooksBothWays · M

May I ask what medications you're on? It's my understanding that you can't take simply an SSRI antidepressant with bipolar 2 because it will trigger a manic phase.

LadyGrace ·

Omega-3s, particularly EPA and DHA, support brain health and may reduce mood swings and depressive episodes. From Earth Clinic. 🌹🫂

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