A few quotes that stand out here,
..."sick of acting perfect"
Take a break from acting, and round down the intensity of this perfection you seek with it. Certainly, life will have much to throw your way for the years you have on earth. Acting to attain an image of something unrealistic is a unreasonable standard of operation for the experience to not weigh you down. It's important to note when you need a snickers (need a moment), and focus on attaining that space to ensure the quality of who you are, and not who you appear. The high standards of external influence can sometimes become too much, and its maintaining health to know when things can flip to the back burner in order to recharge our own spirited selves.
..."world is meant to be unfair"
I wouldn't say that the world is MEANT to be unfair, but it certainly has a few people working tirelessly to make life far too complex for anyone reasonable. The mental stability and sanity has not been a standard fair for those who have developed these systems surrounding us. We can navigate so much, but we each have a towel to toss when the frenzy becomes untenable.
Don't source your peace externally, and don't sacrifice your values in a momentary lapse of circumstance. I think we can do good where it applies, and we can promote the solution to these woes without letting it take us down. I have learned to deflect a lot of grief people put upon me, by a quick snip of advice and pushing it all back on them for their decision making to be the only thing holding them back. I also try to help rally a better train of thought, as less regressive nag and more curiosity or marvel to distract. All the while, developing dark humor and being able to laugh about most things can help lighten the friction of these burdens. We self impose a lot of our headaches by what we navigate in a day of discussions, so I take liberty to reroute the misery with weather, news, or anything else off the cuff that has less intensity in discussion.
I don't fully understand the situation you are navigating, but I feel for the burdens we humans carry in a lifetime of our existence. It is optimal to be emotionally stable, and the company we keep can be jarring from that objective. When I am overwhelmed, I turn introverted and use music or information as a way to change my thought patterns so I can process and release any excessive baggage and move on. Humans are resilient, and all things have an originating place inside ourselves. If we can tap our own sanity and navigate madness, that is our human experience. As maddening as the world can be, it doesn't have to make sense, as each person has factors unrelated to OUR time and space with plenty of unknown issues we do not digest in the heads of others. We cannot be at our best if we are being drained time and time again.
I hope some of this helps, and I wish you luck.