questioning my identity

You can still be a Christian
You just gotta try not to do stuff like that - it's talked about in The New Testament, so still relevant.

Don’t let your religion tell you who you can and can’t love💖

Often it can be your own peer group that offer the way forward. There is such diversity even within any one religion. Many look towards texts and doctrines, others towards love, mercy and compassion.

The truth will set us free. What is truth?

I hope you are surrounded by those who would look towards the beatitudes in St Matthew rather than the 10 Commandments, the truth writ upon human hearts rather than "sacred" books.

All the best for your life's journey.

You have a very long, long bumpy and troublesome road ahead of you. Especially if you don't readjust your beliefs or preferences.

One will eventually have to out weigh the other.

FYI the majority usually take the preference route. That's simply a biology choice.

No longer a societal/religious/moral choice.

I'm blessed (no pun intended) by a lack of belief in a god, so I can't exactly empathize with the dilemma you face, and all I can say is to be true to yourself.

For me, religion is a construct and how you feel personally is what is real. If you feel drawn to her, then explore your feelings, explore who you are, and if there is a god worth believing in, he/she will not abandon you.

@dietmountaindew really your religious convictions do not come into it really as how you feel is not a crime . we all have emotions and feelings towards others maybe not acceptable in the eyes of the ignorant bigots but just see where it takes you with your friend

Might be something you need to really think about there’s nothing wrong with experimenting might give you more of a idea if it’s something you want to continue

Don't justify. No such thing as accident in such matters.
Don't ruin your parents respect.