No friends at uni
Im a first year at university and its been a month since it started and i have only managed to make 2 friends… which by chance are also a couple.
Lets call the girl E and the guy O
They are together 2 years and just so happened they went to the same university. Anyways.. what im always mad about is that these are supposedly the “best years of my life”… and i feel like i am wasting them.
All my friends (that are in other cities) have all found friends, they are out everyday, having fun, being happy and themselves!
Don't get me wrong. Im happy for them. However on my end its not like that.
Everytime i want to go out, drink a beer! Get drunk! Just have fun cocktails or even SIT at a bar restaurant or anywhere, E always has an excuse. And its always i dont have money.
She gets paid 100 euro every saturday which trust me, is enough. Today is Tuesday. She told me she has 20 euro for the rest of her week. How is that possible? HOW can you spend 80 euro in 2 and a half days?!?! She literally hasnt bought anything expensive too!
Lets not also mention that whenever we plan something she is always late! One day i waited for 2 and half hours for her. Ive had enough.
Last time i went out with her at a bar was Oct 10. Its been exactly a month. All other times we just got a take away cheap coffee and sat at a bench not saying anything.
I dont mind sitting at a house but at some point it gets boring. I dont feel like myself anymore.
Part of my personality is getting ready! Putting makeup on. Experimenting with clothes and different styles! I havent felt pretty in such a long time..
Im losing myself day by day. Im trying to make new friends and im not usually the shy type but everyone looks so closed off with their friends i just feel like an outsider…
Im also maintaining a long distance relationship with my boyfriend and its hard on my mental health. I have explained it to her that i want to forget about it a little! I want to have fun but still she cant even master up 4 euros and just buy a damn beer at the bar.
Ive told her too that i can pay for her drinks and anything but i just WANT to go out! Still says no.
I feel like a caged animal. How can i keep this up for 4 years lord help me.
Also please tell me what you think because im starting to feel like im entirely at fault here
Lets call the girl E and the guy O
They are together 2 years and just so happened they went to the same university. Anyways.. what im always mad about is that these are supposedly the “best years of my life”… and i feel like i am wasting them.
All my friends (that are in other cities) have all found friends, they are out everyday, having fun, being happy and themselves!
Don't get me wrong. Im happy for them. However on my end its not like that.
Everytime i want to go out, drink a beer! Get drunk! Just have fun cocktails or even SIT at a bar restaurant or anywhere, E always has an excuse. And its always i dont have money.
She gets paid 100 euro every saturday which trust me, is enough. Today is Tuesday. She told me she has 20 euro for the rest of her week. How is that possible? HOW can you spend 80 euro in 2 and a half days?!?! She literally hasnt bought anything expensive too!
Lets not also mention that whenever we plan something she is always late! One day i waited for 2 and half hours for her. Ive had enough.
Last time i went out with her at a bar was Oct 10. Its been exactly a month. All other times we just got a take away cheap coffee and sat at a bench not saying anything.
I dont mind sitting at a house but at some point it gets boring. I dont feel like myself anymore.
Part of my personality is getting ready! Putting makeup on. Experimenting with clothes and different styles! I havent felt pretty in such a long time..
Im losing myself day by day. Im trying to make new friends and im not usually the shy type but everyone looks so closed off with their friends i just feel like an outsider…
Im also maintaining a long distance relationship with my boyfriend and its hard on my mental health. I have explained it to her that i want to forget about it a little! I want to have fun but still she cant even master up 4 euros and just buy a damn beer at the bar.
Ive told her too that i can pay for her drinks and anything but i just WANT to go out! Still says no.
I feel like a caged animal. How can i keep this up for 4 years lord help me.
Also please tell me what you think because im starting to feel like im entirely at fault here
