I don't want to go too much into it. Not sure how close I was to death, but in a crisis where I was being very reckless with myself and my health, I had a guardian angel forcefully stop me and tell me to stop doing what I was doing. It also gave me encouragement. Put me on a better path. If I had kept doing what I was, there is a good chance I wouldn't have woken up one day, and so that is why the warning was so strong. I just didn't care about myself and needed a wakeup call.
I saw my sister, my mother and my grandmother. They looked very sort of young and "beautiful." They were in a place I needed to climb to but I was helped to get there the first time I tried. Each time I came to the void I was on a shore and it was beautiful... I won't go into all of the details but it was very peaceful.
Once I found them, they said I couldn't stay and I was so utterly heartbroken and inconsolable. More than I've ever been about anything ever before or since in my life. It was the most profound sense of rejection. I kept trying to come back and the void was angry with me and wouldn't help me return. So I came back to my body to suffer.
The “luminescence” looked like this but no where near as bright. It was just faint enough that you could “see it” but I couldn’t see I didn’t have eyes or a body. I was floating in this “luminescence”
That’s why they call it an “experience” you’re experiencing it. Like when I said that I “heard” God. I didn’t hear him with my ears. It was like I understood. The information came to me telepathically.
Also I know it was God because when God speaks to you something in you just knows. Not to mention his voice was omnipresent and echoing. Which I know doesn’t make sense because it was a telepathic message. But that’s the thing. These things don’t make sense to us because all we know is what we have personally experienced. We are always trying to personify God and understand things because it gives us a sense of control. But the reality is there are things that we don’t and will never understand until we die.
I’ve been “dead” several times 3, at least, brain stroke, coma, heart attack, and brain surgery twice. I didn’t remember hearing anything any at the times though I heard a beeping that woke me up for two of them (probably the heart monitor!, I saw nothing though one of them I was actively hallucinating from the brain tumor & “saw” god? I was in a lot of pain for all of them. I did see god at age 19ish. Was it the tumor? Idk but a voice told me to, “quick write this down!” It was a 30 page manifesto the Oath of human citizenship. Was that God? My subconscious or the tumor? At the time I was sober
It was an emptiness. Dark, not due to an absence of light, but rather an absence of anything for the light of fall on. It was quiet, not just free from the noise of the world, but the noise in my head as well. But over all it was just a wonderful feeling of contentment and an absence of pain, or anxiety, or concerns of any kind. It was bliss.
Coming back was probably the biggest disappointment I’ve ever had.
Nobody dies briefly. Your heart may stop briefly but that doesn’t mean you’re dead. Your brain isn’t dead so you might dream something. When you’re dead your organs and brain are dead. Your heart can’t start up again. There’s no coming back to life. Death is final.
At the moment of apparent death, I levitated from my body which was submerged under 3 feet of lake water on a clear springtime morning. As I knelt beside my physical self lying flat on it's back in the sand under the water, I remember how unusual it felt for me to witness seeing my body as others would have seen my physical self in my day to day life.
