Pretty sure I have an eating disorder in progress
Or maybe not. Or maybe. Been like questioning it sometimes. Because at the moment it's only sometimes I do this.
I've been exercising a lot which isn't the main issue. I exercise an hour a day, with a break every two days because of my knees needing a break.
Weirdly enough I'm worried I'll gain weight a lot even with all the exercise and change in diet. Like it's strange so I guess that was one red flag.
Other red flag started because occasionlly if I eat too much I'll throw it all up. Saves me on calories sometimes if I end up going overboard. If I eat too much to where I feel sick it makes more sense just to vomit it all up instead of be uncomfortable or possibly vomit later anyway.
But it's sort of become a habit, so that's something that I'm working on stopping, plus the overeating. Because it seemed harmless really at first, but then it kind of has become at frequent maybe to once a week. So I'm slowly working my way down and out of the habit again. Plus my bf told me he doesn't like it when I do it.
I have also developed the ability to vomit quitely or secretly even if I'm at someone's house. And I always clean up after myself at least, so there's that. But I realize it's a bad habit to have so馃ゲ
I've been exercising a lot which isn't the main issue. I exercise an hour a day, with a break every two days because of my knees needing a break.
Weirdly enough I'm worried I'll gain weight a lot even with all the exercise and change in diet. Like it's strange so I guess that was one red flag.
Other red flag started because occasionlly if I eat too much I'll throw it all up. Saves me on calories sometimes if I end up going overboard. If I eat too much to where I feel sick it makes more sense just to vomit it all up instead of be uncomfortable or possibly vomit later anyway.
But it's sort of become a habit, so that's something that I'm working on stopping, plus the overeating. Because it seemed harmless really at first, but then it kind of has become at frequent maybe to once a week. So I'm slowly working my way down and out of the habit again. Plus my bf told me he doesn't like it when I do it.
I have also developed the ability to vomit quitely or secretly even if I'm at someone's house. And I always clean up after myself at least, so there's that. But I realize it's a bad habit to have so馃ゲ