I might've put it off as an unrealistic dream.But I think now that I don't have any excuses. Definitely not anyone who'd be so heartbroken when I'm gone away in the Army. Now's the time to practice discipline, conquer fears, take way better care of myself like I should've been doing to begin...See More ยป
Welp, *clicks my tongue* I'm on my own...Nobody to hold me down. Nobody to look forward to. Nobody to spoil. Nobody to love like that. That's fine, I suppose. I did a great thing in helping her get to where she's at right now, whether she realizes it or not. But now, I have to let go. Kinda...See More ยป
I'm okay with this.I've been hurting for a week. My emotions have been out of control. But once my anger subsided, selfishness gone, I saw this situation in a new light. She's living with her friend's family, learning how to cook, has a beautiful place for her to relax...See More ยป
Late Night stuff...don't read. You looked good on violet sheets. Pure blue eyes looking back at me. I came over like a shadow. You laid there all mine. Your scent filled my senses. Your touch was electric. How could I have resisted? Lips gliding along your neck. Glands pumping...See More ยป
Uggh, I feel so weird.Restless, memories flooding my brain, and darkness taking hold in a way. Lovely...
I'm listening to a song about A.I. take over and dominance. The women in there are hot. Shoot me with that crossbow baby, I'm backed up on a drive. ๐๐๐
Telling me I shouldn't go out.Ooooohhh and now your sense of judgement isn't impaired? Whatever... I'm free from you now, got nothing to lose so I don't really care. Got it?
Western Mountains or East coast?I'm planning on a solo trip just to get away from the shit here for a little while. Haven't gone to the coast in at least half a decade and I've never seen the Texas mountain ranges. If I go to the coast, it's gonna be a fishing trip. If I go to the...See More ยป
So that's it now? Getting hurt so bad im starting to hear echoes in my head.Somebody's dying from laughter in there. Wonderful.
Well, it finally happened."Every one deserves the truth and you deserve more than me I'm going through something that's only going to hurt others and I don't want to hurt you nor keep you from being happy, I'm just not sure how to tell you so however I still want you in my...See More ยป
I Play Bass GuitarI love playing percussively and using different playing techniques. Even Unconventionally like tapping on different parts of the strings to create a really electronic sound through my amp or even using a violin's bow. Right now I'm trying to work on...See More ยป
Once i get paid, i think im just gonna go to the coast.With social distancing and all. I just need to get away from all the b.s. here. Gather my strength. Then come back and hit it like a hurricane
It's been rough for days. Been crying occasionally. I'm really tired of this.There's so much swarming in my head. Everything has been humbling in a shitty way like being flat out broke and having to ask for help, seeing everyone my age ahead of the game living their life on their own, girlfriend is just semi-present now...See More ยป
Jeez, I can't talk to anyone here in this household.They just ignore. Everything under the rug. If it ain't about them, they don't care. Ugh :/