Here is a conversation with my sister... she doubts (cause we brought it up before).... I risked alluding to it.... You were so exhausted yesterday you slept so early Yeah, and woke at 06 AM to finish some work stuff Yep, I've been told you were in a good mood when you got up, you needed the rest Well, I was just pretending because I can't look down the... See More »
I don't think I should be marrying soon...I can't even tell my family about my bipolar disorder 2, how could I tell someone I could potentially break up with? No. This is a big no. Plus, I have so many issues that resurface whenever I'm neutral or worse depressed. I went to therapy... See More »
Turns out my euthymia is depressed.Today I finished the first tablet of the mood stabilizer. Which makes it five days in a row for my first time taking treatment for my bipolar II (recently diagnosed) I can hardly believe it but I'm committed I guess. I only missed one pill once cause... See More »
I WENT TO THE PSYCHIATRIST TODAY! 🥹🙏🏼Yeey... Idk why I'm so proud of myself !! 🥳 I've been postponing this for so long (cause I had a very bad experience with 3 previous ones it was awful and they either rushed me or didn't believe me) ... and finally, finally I took this step... See More »
7th day... mood tracking is making me notice stuff.6th day I had a 24h shift, couldn't post anything. I only slept two hours (on the desk at 2am) as I was writing the reports. It is too exhausting. I only had time to eat the mini sandwich I had for lunch at 8pm lol. I noticed a few things however:... See More »
5th day of journaling... and yes, it completely sounds that I'm in the phase of depression of my bp2. Damn. And also, now I know what I'm fearing..A co worker today told me (unbeknownst to them) how the attendings (my superiors) noticed how different I am... how tired/unfocused/forgetting, I am. They are planning to give me a 03 days rest but she didn't want me to tell me until they're sure it... See More »
I'm back... prolly in another cycle of my BP2.It's been a while, Job's taking over But now I'm back... I used to journal here about my newly discovered bipolar. I was hypomanic (or neutral) but now for sure I'm neither. My mood has become constantly low and all I'm thinking of is to check yet... See More »
Mania activated- being bipolarSo this year has been a tough one for me with a lot of ups and down and recently it’s been mainly downs but last two days manic mode has been activated so much I feel on such a high it’s driving me mad. I just thought after my little holiday with... See More »
