Eh .. it is what it is at this point. I can't change the past, only what I choose going forward. Making several changes there .. we'll see how it goes.
I should have been in less of a rush to find love when I was an adolescent, if I hadn't it would have found me sooner than I realized. I took on an internet relationship and that girl basically told me to keep her a secret and try to find someone closer to home to be with. I did. but I have a conscience and I couldn't do it in secret. it was too much, plus I knew she'd figure it out somehow at some point so I got out in front of it and told her and yeah I got dumped. really stupid and it's not that I wanted to hurt anyone or anything but I used love as a coping mechanism for all the hell I went through in school and It made me impatient to find enough when I Was attrated to a girl several states over who played the same game as me I went for it.
If I hadn't been in such a rush I never would have ended up hurting the other girl