I'm not doing great

Last week was just constant waves of suicidal thoughts ebbing and flowing. This week hasn't been as bad as that, but in my quiet moments I still find myself questioning what I'm holding on for. Don't worry, I'm not actually a risk to myself or others, even when I am actively suicidal. I tried that once and it turned out I don't have it in me to hurt myself. But I really don't feel like I have all that much left since we're not together any more. I keep telling myself it's temporary, but I love her and being without her is the worst thing imaginable for me. But I'm pretty sure that's just me being pathetic.

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AthrillatheHunt · 51-55, M

Isn’t it summer where you are? That’s not usually the time for those types of thoughts.

pride49 · 31-35, M

@AthrillatheHunt season and temperature doesn't dictate all thought processes

AthrillatheHunt · 51-55, M

@pride49 not all , but seasons , temperatures , and hours of daylight have huge effects on moods. Way more self deletions in the darker colder months worldwide .

pride49 · 31-35, M

@AthrillatheHunt And I hate summer. where does that fit into your statistics lol

AthrillatheHunt · 51-55, M

@pride49 you’re an outlier. Do they have services where you live ? Someone to talk to . Even on the phone ?

KiwiDan · 31-35, M

@AthrillatheHunt my brain doesn't work right at any time of year