thoughts about suicide?

permanant solution to a temporary problem..

I had about year or so a while back during which I was very suicidal and experiencing a lot of self-harm urges as well. This was at the apex of my battle with depression. I was later diagnosed with Complex PTSD (PTSD pertaining to childhood trauma) and chronic anxiety. Essentially what was happening to me is that certain subliminal signals in my life were continuously triggering my PTSD, and sending me into what I call 'anxious states'. These anxious states were a sort of mental analog of a fight or flight state, basically my whole brain and nervous system was constantly in overdrive. At first this caused me all sorts of dissociative issues as my psyche tried to escape itself because it was tired of being stuck in an over-alert brain and body. If the anxious states lasted long enough, my subconscious would eventually give up on dissociating, and instead become suicidal. I think this is kind of logical in a certain way, since my psyche basically just needs to end its state of over-stressed fight-or-flight terror in any way possible, so when dissociating stops working, then it turns to something more drastic.

What fixed it was making sure I noticed when I slipped into an anxious state, then using various techniques to get out of it so that it didn't come to suicide, and also addressing the PTSD triggers in my life.

Personally I have considered suicide only if I know I’m going to die anyway, like with untreatable cancer or other illness . As long as I am able to live a life where I have the ability to do the things I enjoy doing and Canmore or less take care of myself , I’m ok. If near the known end and known suffering of myself and my loved ones because of my sickness I would like to choose my time and place if I could.
A little note I lost my mother and a few aunts to cancer, a slow painful death . I lost my dad to a sudden heart attack saw him alive and well, got home and got a phone call, he had passed away at his sisters sitting in a chair .
No way is easy for the people left behind so in certain situations suicide could be the option. Just my personal opinion.

i say if someone's thinking about doing it either they're serious about it and there's not much i can do to change things for the long term or they're not so serious in which case it's pretty much just attention seeking. it's too damaging on my own mental health to associate with suicidal/depressed people so i don't.

a bit cold i know but i'm also not trained or equipped to deal with this like a professional would. my advice is if you or someone you know is going through this see/get them professional help.

I have dark moments. My thoughts are if I had done so when I was young I would have been robbing myself of some awesome experiences. There is always hope.

not worth it. gotta keep living for the little things.

Yep. I have had them for a long time now. They get easier to ignore with time.

I’ll always say a permanent solution to a temporary problem

Suicide is self murder..

Not a good path..

no

Otherwise known as sentencing yourself to death, it's just subjective. 🤷‍♀️