How can I monetize my Suicidal ideation

The book im reading called " my year of rest and relaxation - Ottessa Moshfegh" the protagonist tries to take a body holiday by eating as many sleeping pills as possible to stay alive in a sleep state for a year, that way she doesnt have to deal with the world and its problems.

Her body develops a tolerance and she ends up sleep walking despite the meds, much like the movie fight club's premise, she blacks out after taking her pills as planned but her body goes on to take her to parties and continue have a nightlife she is unaware of ( tyler durden in fight club) as if she has a complete other, functioning personality.

Here's the monetizing suggestion for you...

So the character in the book, while in her sleepwalk state, meets an artist who likes making avant garde art, and he starts photographing her night time personality, for his art, and contacts her in the daytime to ask her to be his muse and eventually she agrees coz she feels she has nothing to lose anyway. So he pays her to spend a week in her sleepwalk state, he makes her apartment his studio and takes pics and poses her body as he wishes with different sets he builds in her space.

There might be an artist out there looking for a muse, and you can propose the same deal.

Hmmm....Rudboy certainly gave the best answer by far. Are you expericed in those things?

Those are great ideas

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i think that's what people usually do

You could give lessons, but there's not a lot of repeat business.

I certainly hope you are not considering suicide. 🥺

A chain of restaurants.

You shouldn't

You're trying to make money off of people's mental illness? Is that what you're saying?

isnt poetry the traditional vehicle? maybe writing in general. creative arts anyway

Choking yourself on onlyfans, filming it and tell people what you see. The thoughts, the colours, the feelings.