I’m sorry

My condolences.

hugs

This is pretty normal.
I felt all these things for quite along time

Take it one day, and even one moment at a time. Make peace with everything to do with your loss, I know not all details, but assuming there's such emotion involved, it indicates to me that to be at peace with things would be a good thing to aim at.

Write about these memories if you feel it may help, and I can imagine it could help.

The thing though with SW, is that insensible people will find in those posts opportunities to be sickening a-holes. In order for that garbage to not effect you, I think it's essential to realize how that with every word uttered by such people is very clear proof of the almost non-existent worth they possess as human beings.

You will receive support and understanding by good people, and may you heal at a natural pace. 🫂

It doesn't feel like it now but it will get a bit easier. You'll never forget and it will always hurt when memories are awakened but you'll continue to build your life and adapt. Grief is the natural price of loving.