How to get over the pain, anger, and bitterness of being a victim of bullying?

Enjoy what you do now, every success shows how little they matter, every new relationship validates you.

Don’t waste time dwelling on what has been, look forward to what could be.

I can understand. I was bullied through school and then through university as well. Even my internship year was a time spent in hell, then 2 more years after. I developed severe ptsd. The posts I made here from my old account were awful, full of hatred and despise for everyone involved at different points in my life. It's completely understandable. Don't feel guilt or shame for having these thoughts and emotions.
These are extremely hard and might seem impossible to overcome.
What can help is STAYING AWAY from any triggers. I deleted my facebook, and any other social media, and cut off everyone who would remind me of those people. Never googled their names again, never picked calls from unknown numbers who could potentially be old classmates who would remind me of my bullies.
It took me a few years to move past, and celebrating small successes helped. Things like self care, a productive day, and developing a hobby helped loads. For at least 2 years it was extremely hard to be productive, as my mind would enter ptsd flashbacks every few minutes or so throughout the day, and I was either punching the walls or screaming or hitting myself. This in addition to sleepless nights just exhausted me even more. I couldn't eat because I had no appetite so I had no energy. I had no money to go to therapy because I was unemployed. So for even the 2 minutes or 5 minutes I had between hours of flashbacks, I would work towards my goal. It was extremely slow progress, but I did it. Mostly I only studied for 10 whole minutes in the whole day. On a good day I would have studied an hour. At the end of two years, I had still made significant progress from where I was 2 years back, and it looked bright. Celebrating studying each new page helped me gain my self esteem and self love back.

I just want you to know that you can do it too. 5 minutes effort everyday for 2 years is better than 0 minutes effort for 2 years. Just find a realistic goal that's not too big. It might take you 3 years or 5 or 10 to get there. But you will eventually and it will mean the world to you. And never look them up online. They aren't worth even 1 minute of your time. You are beautiful and capable. You can move on.

I was bullied a lot. I started to forget about them in my early twenties. I realized at some point when I was a mom that my bullies were actually just kids who must have had a lot of problems in their life to pick on me the way they did when they didn’t even know me. All of my bullies never knew me and that’s what I find so odd. Like I was this random kid they all decided to hate. When I discovered Facebook I looked up the worst bully I ever had. Her name was Casey. She was a year older than me. Her Facebook picture was awful. She would have been early forties in the picture but she looked in her sixties. The years have not been good to her. She looked like she was missing front teeth and her skin was wrinkly.

{@mightylion] there is nothing wrong with that emotional reaction and it is only expected the anger and hatred towards those who bullied you . i can speak from experience as i went through it for twelve years at school and after . i see one of my main bullies from time to time i speak to him but deep down in my heart the deep down loathing is still there . i would not tackle him about as even the scars it has left mentally it is water under the bridge and try to move forward from it

Don't have victim mentality it will only destroy you . Confront the feelings head on ..feel them and process them ..then think of positive ways to improve your self talk and thoughts ...talk this through with someone if need be ...you will feel stronger and more resilient because of what you went through
Best of luck to you

Difficult. It’s tough to not think it’s happening again. The past hinders the present.

Channel that hate into a goal. That's what I did. That's one of my fuel sources.

Who is bulling you right now?

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Moving away from triggers does help.