I hide from people because in my personal life I am struggling.

I care for others and want to be a friend, but I stop myself. I'm depleted and anxious and stuck in survival mode. It's my job to fix this and I am working on it. I don't want to be this alone. I don't want to be afraid to get close to people. Unfortunately no matter what, I bother people by not being enough.

This is the first time in my life I've had boundaries. Inside my walls I'm figuring stuff out so one day I don't have to self isolate. I know I disappoint people, but I have disappointed myself much, far, WAY worse and deeply. I'm trying to make that right so I can be a functioning person again.

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mindstruggle · 31-35, F

I’ve been learning that boundaries are actually healthy especially for someone like me who gets really attached and clingy. It’s hard, but I’m trying to give myself space to grow instead of chasing connection out of fear. I want to get better at being close without losing myself.

ScreamingFox

@mindstruggle not losing yourself if hard but definitely a goal I understand. We got this.

Achelois · F

Me too, I’m so good at isolating myself, healing is dark and messy.

I don’t isolate myself like I did, I pushed everyone away, i needed to grieve 🥺 mostly who I was, what I had become.

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Achelois · F

@Convivial

Love it 🥰 so true.

Convivial · 26-30, F

@Achelois it is, but also painful... The reality is your often throwing out a belief system you trusted... Not easy

Achelois · F

@Convivial

Oh everything has been thrown out the window, I see clearly now the truth.
🤗🤗🤗

Bexsy

Boundaries are good. I'm learning this too

Convivial · 26-30, F

It's ok to ask for help... No one gets through life alone ...

ScreamingFox

@Convivial That's the tricky part. The way I was raised, the way my life played out, asking for help made things worse.

I'm trying to trust myself again, to find my strength again and make some big changes to find peace. I share on here and that helps, but I don't know what else to ask for. At least if I share openly on here I'm not dragging some poor person down with my junk.

One on one is hard for me right now. I like to give and I have nothing to give currently.