I hide from people because in my personal life I am struggling.

I care for others and want to be a friend, but I stop myself. I'm depleted and anxious and stuck in survival mode. It's my job to fix this and I am working on it. I don't want to be this alone. I don't want to be afraid to get close to people. Unfortunately no matter what, I bother people by not being enough.

This is the first time in my life I've had boundaries. Inside my walls I'm figuring stuff out so one day I don't have to self isolate. I know I disappoint people, but I have disappointed myself much, far, WAY worse and deeply. I'm trying to make that right so I can be a functioning person again.