I hide from people because in my personal life I am struggling.

I care for others and want to be a friend, but I stop myself. I'm depleted and anxious and stuck in survival mode. It's my job to fix this and I am working on it. I don't want to be this alone. I don't want to be afraid to get close to people. Unfortunately no matter what, I bother people by not being enough.

This is the first time in my life I've had boundaries. Inside my walls I'm figuring stuff out so one day I don't have to self isolate. I know I disappoint people, but I have disappointed myself much, far, WAY worse and deeply. I'm trying to make that right so I can be a functioning person again.

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mindstruggle · 31-35, F

I’ve been learning that boundaries are actually healthy especially for someone like me who gets really attached and clingy. It’s hard, but I’m trying to give myself space to grow instead of chasing connection out of fear. I want to get better at being close without losing myself.

ScreamingFox

@mindstruggle not losing yourself if hard but definitely a goal I understand. We got this.