Take your time, work on your self worth, or you will likely attract someone who sees your weaknesses and takes advantage. I say this as a person who has had more than one abusive relationship in her time. It can be very dangerous.
@sahi81 It doesn't happen overnight. Listen to yourself, reflect on where your insecurities came from. Start thinking about what boundaries you need to put in place for your own wellbeing. Cast your net a bit wider than just finding a partner. Friends are very important so that you don't pile too much pressure onto your romantic relationships. Just start with small stuff like listening to how you're talking to yourself every day. Change that to more loving language, at first it feels fake and weird, but your words are important and your subconscious is always listening. Look for some hypnosis videos on youtube and listen before you sleep or even while you are asleep. Jason Stephenson is very good, I highly recommend you look up his stuff.
@MarkPaul there are many men who will be happy if i am ruined or never find a partner or fall in life, first i need to be alive or away from them to try dating peacefully.
@sahi81 In Praise of Red Tara Ablaze like a thousand glorious, golden suns, Your body shines a million splendorous beams, A burgeoning mass of light of great bliss wisdom. I bow to you, goddess who pervades the three realms. Atop a bright red lotus, the hue of coral, You shine sharp rays of magnetizing light That summons all bees, the beings on the three levels. I bow to you, glorious lady of abundance. The moment you draw the blue utpala bow Of your arched brows and shoot the meteor dart Of a glance, you steal vain beings’ firmness of heart. I bow to you, who make the world and beings into your servants. Extending slightly your willowy, lithe young arm, You effortlessly deposit in our palms All of the riches of existence and peace. I bow to you, sovereign who fulfills all wishes. To see you, who are the pinnacle of beauty, Painted so well by the brush of an ocean of merit, Frees us of lustful desires and absorbs us In just the samadhi of recalling your form. Your two feet move in the gait of an elephant king Guided by the hook of unbreakable faith, Jingling the golden anklets of the two siddhis— Please stay in the forest of my matted locks! In the blossoming lotus pond of a pure mind, You are a white swan replete with all seven melodies. May the rhythms of the drum—your deep, broad throat— Bring on the feast of a summer of perfection. Karmapa Ogyen Trinley Dorje February 22, 2025 Translated by David Karma Choephel
