My past is bothering me so much

Same. Literally same. It holds me back so much. But I'll give you a tip that has really really reaalllyyyyy helped me: acknowledging your small wins. Reaching small goals and Patting yourself on the back. I swear it helps you grow.
That, plus some good meds helped me get over obsessive/intrusive thoughts(memories)

I agree sometimes i wonder though without the battle to keep them down what would be left?

Best way to forget is stop living in the past and move on with your life. If it is a ex get a new boyfriend or girlfriend. If it is your parent's cut them out of your life. If it is the area u live move to some place new. If it is a old friend get out there and make new friend's

There is nothing that can be done about the past. That’s ok too. The past is a construction of the mind. It doesn’t really exist. It is only present in your memory and imagination. Try to have a new thought and a great new day. It’s important for your future and a better tomorrow too!

{@woofwoof15] sorry too here this it is very sad but some waters run deep and horrible memories can scar you mentally. i have them from when i young have you spoken too anyone about talking and getting help for this

Yes I feel that way too it sux alot but it's in the past and you can't change it...I've had my own traumas I still deal with all the time I just handle it day by day 🤗