My niece's birthday is next Saturday and I still haven't gotten her a gift.No idea how anyway because I have no money. I'm a rotten uncle :(
So all jokes aside should I apply at hot topic?I've had people in the past tell me I look like the hot topic employee of the year so hey why not.
Well no job interview today they canceled. They said they will call next week for a reschedule.I'm out of time and out of money and was really hoping for the interview today but it's not looking good for me.
I feel a deep sense of dread and I don't understand whyI feel anxious and sick to my stomach and I don't know what for.
Oh I forgot to tell you guys that the neighbor lady is back in action coming for me again.Remember the older lady who lives across from me in my building? The one who yelled at me for smoking weed which is something I actually don't smoke I just smoke cigarettes? Well she was back at it again this time going door to door to find out who... See More »
I hope I find a job soon because I am out of money.I have an interview tomorrow but we will see. Gas is low in the car too so driving around must be done wisely.
Well that was kind of odd.I was just sitting here on the couch and I had ringing in my right ear, felt dizzy and my heart rate went up. Felt wonky for a few minutes but I'm mostly ok now. Wonder if my vagus nerve is acting up again.
Man all the jobs I keep seeing are sales based jobs. I'm incapable of doing those!I've been on indeed since I got up this morning and all I am seeing are sales jobs. I don't want to make commission or get yelled at and threatened and or fired for not making my quota. There is no point in trying because I know I won't be able to... See More »
I quit my job last night because I got threatened and I couldn't do it anymore.There was a ton to get done and it was just me and my boss working. He wasn't helping and I had said I just wasn't sure how I'm supposed to accomplish it all before close. I was just thinking out loud trying to figure it out when my boss decided to... See More »
Would you say quitting looks better on a resume than being fired?Long story will explain later but I quit my job last night. No backup plan.
I'm beginning to wonder if maybe I can try to buy a house if a mortgage would be cheaper than rent?I was thinking about buying one of those mobile homes. I wonder if a mortgage is cheaper than renting would be. I'd be a first time home buyer so I think theres programs for that.
I spent most of the day in varying states of disassociation.From feeling floaty and hollow to feeling a little more alert but zapped of all energy..... Every little thing has been overwhelming and I almost cried at work as a result. I learned two of my coworkers are leaving soon. One graduates soon and has... See More »
It's amazing and also scary what chronic stress does to the body.I know researching on my own is probably not the best idea but when I was talking to the doctor in er and brought up stress it is related. My vagus nerve going wild, panic attacks, even gerd can be caused by chronic stress. Last year I was sick a ton... See More »
Having a panic attack while driving on the freeway is the worst.Last night I was leaving a friend's house and began driving home. About 10 minutes in to a roughly 46min drive home I broke out into a cold sweat, I felt very cold and numb, mouth went dry and tasted bad and chest hurt. I'm still dealing with gerd... See More »
Well another round of rejections has hit my email inbox. I feel very worthless very very worthless.I feel bad for being such a broken record sounding downer as of late. I wish things were different I really do. I guess I should be getting ready soon to go out with friends tonight. Sounds like I'm going to be picked up, taken to dinner and then... See More »
Did anyone else's mom broil the crap out of steaks when you were growing up?Always new york strips marinated in Italian dressing seasoned with mrs.dash afterwards and broiled to death. They were always kinda grey/brown but we ate the crap out of them because that's what was for dinner and there was nothing else.
Well I almost got hit by a car today and then nearly rear ended someone myself. Space cadet is at it again.I swear I looked before crossing the street and it was clear but as I was crossing something told me to stop walking and I'm glad I did because this jeep came out of nowhere and I would have been hit if I hadn't stopped. I was driving home afterwards... See More »
Today I accomplished absolutely nothing and regret it.Remember how I said my hours got cut? Well as a result I've had more days off than I am used to so I had originally planned for today to be a hardcore day of job applications and trying to clean up my apartment. Well none of that happened I decided... See More »
I am such a fool thinking I could ever rise above the level of poor white trash.Maybe it's the alcohol talking because I've been drinking vodka since I got home from work or maybe it's because I'm crazy but I feel like a fool for thinking I could go higher than being poor white trash. It's not my fault I was born into a super... See More »
The job rejections keep rolling in. Nobody wants anything to do with me.I'm just trapped and I've been applying for entry level jobs in warehouses, retail and things of that nature. Nobody wants anything to do with me.
My neighbor yelled at me for smoking in the building when it's something that's allowed.Nowhere does it say in the rule book that the complex is non smoking I looked to be sure. I've lived in the building for almost 4 years now and nobody has ever knocked on my door to yell at me about it until today. Normally if I smoke inside my... See More »
Worst part about dying hair is when the roots get badI look worse than usual currently because they're so grown out and it just looks terrible. I also look very tired and gross in general these days. Went out a few days ago with friends and someone just had to take a group shot. Everyone else looked... See More »
I don't know what's wrong with me today.I feel like a space case. I don't remember if I brushed my hair this morning or not. It's not a tangled mess but that doesn't mean much. I dropped something off at my moms this morning and took the freeway over. Speed limit is 70 and I'm barely doing... See More »
I've decided once my lease is up in march to snag that house.I've been talking to the landlord there and upon doing the math myself I will be saving a few hundred bucks moving to a rougher neighborhood. I checked the area out it doesn't look that bad. I saw lots of nice older brick homes and there's a real... See More »
I'm about to mentally collapse and I can't do anything about it because of money.I'm far past miserable at work to a level I don't have words for. Everytime I am there I am just so mad and so angry that every tiny inconvenience that happens makes me explode. I was putting stock away and the box ripped. Annoying but no big deal... See More »