I'm still here unfortunatelyI'm sorry I never responded back to anyone. I meant to and intentions to but failed to do so. My mood has stabilized for now. It swings wildly at times. One thing going wrong or sideways can derail me completely sometimes, especially if I'm already... See More »
I was laying on the couch earlier holding a knife wishing for the strength to just do it.I was hoping for the courage to just let go. Bargaining with God honestly. I don't want to be here.
I don't want to go to work I'm way too anxious. I feel terrible and can't really do much at the moment.
I should freak out more often I get very interesting dreamsI took a long nap and my dream was weird. I was at a hospital in the parking garage and I went down the ramp on my stomach leaving a snail trail all the way down. I somehow was in the hospital next learning about lungs. I was sitting in a chair... See More »
I wish I could afford to live on my own. I self harmed and freaked out earlier because of it.Scratched myself all over until I drew blood, screamed and wished to just die. I feel like a prisoner I feel smothered.
It's way too cold in this houseI feel like the ac has been running nonstop for hours. My room feels like a morgue but I can't adjust the thermostat because I'll never hear the end of it.
If I keep eating sugar toast I might gain back all the weight I lostI've been addicted to eating white bread smeared with margarine and brown sugar and cinnamon. I ate it as a kid and have rediscovered it.
I witnessed an old man fight at walmartI've always seen those public freakout videos on youtube but this time I'm seeing it in real life. They were fighting over parking and the one was really aggressive threatening and shouting. The other man tried dragging me into it because I was... See More »
Ugh the minions Wendy's commercial is driving me nutsI don't understand the appeal of those annoying yellow tic tacs
I feel like a lifeless sack of crapStill recovering from my breakdown and panic attack combo. I didn't sleep last night and have felt in a haze. I didn't lose my job thankfully even though I walked out. I went back today and shockingly didn't even get in trouble like I probably should... See More »
And I walked in on someone in the bathroom because they didn't lock their stall. GREAT WONDERFUL NOTNow I feel awkward
I'm having lunch at McDonald's and the tables open are mostly in the play area. I can't sit in there as a lone male people will think I'm a weirdoI feel bad taking up a big booth by myself but i don't need people thinking im a weirdo especially because i don't have children
I am concerned I am turning into a whackjobYesterday the smoke alarm went off at home and my mom was having trouble reaching it. I couldn't tell what button was which for turning it off so I took it off the wall but I couldn't make it shut off fast enough and the noise made me tweak out some.... See More »
Honestly? I don't even want to return to workAfter today I'd rather not. I think I will focus on finding a new job. When I say my brain broke and I shut down I mean it. I felt paralyzed like I couldn't make a single decision or figure out where to even begin or how. All I could do was stand... See More »
I had a panic attack in the woods and am convinced I'm dyingI walked out of work because I had a breakdown and couldn't do it anymore. I drove to a park and wandered the trails trying to figure out life. I saw a little desire trail in the woods so I followed it. I think it was part of the actual trail long... See More »
I think I'm going to go to the beach tomorrow. Might do me some good to spend time in nature and the sun.As pale as I am I will most likely be sunburnt but it's ok.
I was at McDonald's for lunch and the manager kept yelling at the workers. Made me think of when I worked at McDonald's out of highschool. I felt badI was picking up lunch for my mom and I
I was moved to the midnights shift and I love it honestlyBarely anyone comes in and if they do they're usually chill. Means I can just be stoned in peace. Today was my day off and I nearly caused a car accident. I was trying to follow my gps and pavement markers at the same time and didn't see this car.... See More »
