I swear I should be a househusband I do so much better at home.

I'm serious I'm actually thriving. My brother and his family went on vacation to Michigan's upper peninsula and I've been housesitting taking care of his pets the past 4 days. I'm thriving over here. I haven't been this happy in awhile. I'm surrounded by pets who love me and are happy to see me and me them. I've straightened up the place some and cleaned the floors and kitchen. I tidied up my niece's rooms and put their toys away and organized everything. I kind of cried actually folding up their laundry to put away because this is the closest I'll probably ever get to being a father. For some reason it really got to me. Probably because I was thinking of my maternal grandmother who used to pick up after my brother and I when we stayed over there when our mom was working. My parents divorced when I was quite young so my grandma was a second mom to me.

My stress levels are way down and I feel good and am sad because I have to go back to reality friday. I hate feeling so high one moment and so low the next. On the bright side my substance usage is down being here.