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I don't want to be here anymore.

I don't think I want to die.
I just want to disappear until I feel okay again.

Everything is too much of an effort. I haven't been reaching out to my friends and I've been short tempered and mean to my loved ones. I lay in bed all day and watch the sky turn from day to night and I will continue to lay here until I can no longer keep my eyes open, because even sleeping is too much of an effort.
Coppercoil · M
God i have been there. I know i cant help. Your friends and family cant. I know that fall into darkness that just gets deeper and deeper and darker and darker. I know the paralysis and the hopelessness that binds you to the earth as if you weigh more than you could ever hope to lift. Just try and remember you are not alone. You are seen and felt and known and cared for, even by someone who is mostly a stranger on the internet, me. You have more value than youll ever know. Just let the storm run its course and know all things in life pass and this will too. But if you do have access to therapy or meds you must force yourself to go. Try and take care and be kind to yourself as you would if you broke your arm or got a bad flu. This not your fault and just something you must endure for now. But the sunrise is on its way. It will find you again.
Sometimes a break is what we need to find a place in ourselves where we just feel..at least where we tolerate if not ok. I know so many people think they know what I think or feel or should think. Sometimes its okay to just want to be left alone
AngelKrish · 26-30, M
My dear forgive yourself if you hurt anyone with your temper.....
We are human and we are full of emotions that we carry inside....you are feeling bad about what you did is enough as apology..

Don't go away or disappear because your love ones will feel more depressed with your disappearance....that's regressive!
Dont punish yourself anymore....it was just moment when things got heated but now that moment was just past...if u feel to apologise someone then do it....now live in present and promise yourself that next time i will not let it happen again...that's progressive!😌
Try to find something that gives you a purpose something that you enjoy doing it will give you something to concentrate your efforts into
Contrast is necessary for change - for seeing the other end of the spectrum. The farther back you pull the arrow in the bow, the farther it will travel when released.

Your feeling of wanting to disappear now, is a prelude to your future grand appearance.

Don't lose heart. This is only one part of the journey.
diablo · 51-55, M
Depression can take us all into deep, dark spaces and places. Take a break for ever long you need, yet promise to return before doing so. You are....well, you know how special you are you me and others here as well. Personally, I cannot bear the thought of losing your friendship.
I can relate to this. I ended up with a community based order as a result to this feeling. Basically some random idiot didn’t keep his mouth shut and minded his own business, and hence I got charged with assault and got a community based order.
TeirdalinFirefall · 31-35, M
i can relate. i don’t want to die but i don’t want to live. just stuck

hope we can get out of this mood bc life is too short
assemblingaknob · 26-30, F
Just do whatever is necessary for now. And besides that, lots of rest and a "taking it slow" routine.
AuRevoir · 36-40, M
I hope you feel better..
Time out is good for us all once in a while. Hide away until youre recharged.
PhilDeep · 51-55, M
Depression? I hope you are out of the dip, whatever it was.
Firechidist · 26-30, F
Sounds like you're extremely depressed
LordShadowfire · 46-50, M
Sounds like you are clinically depressed. I don't generally go in for psych meds, at least not long-term, but that might help while you try to get your groove back.

 
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