I don't want to be here anymore.

I don't think I want to die.
I just want to disappear until I feel okay again.

Everything is too much of an effort. I haven't been reaching out to my friends and I've been short tempered and mean to my loved ones. I lay in bed all day and watch the sky turn from day to night and I will continue to lay here until I can no longer keep my eyes open, because even sleeping is too much of an effort.

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Coppercoil · M

God i have been there. I know i cant help. Your friends and family cant. I know that fall into darkness that just gets deeper and deeper and darker and darker. I know the paralysis and the hopelessness that binds you to the earth as if you weigh more than you could ever hope to lift. Just try and remember you are not alone. You are seen and felt and known and cared for, even by someone who is mostly a stranger on the internet, me. You have more value than youll ever know. Just let the storm run its course and know all things in life pass and this will too. But if you do have access to therapy or meds you must force yourself to go. Try and take care and be kind to yourself as you would if you broke your arm or got a bad flu. This not your fault and just something you must endure for now. But the sunrise is on its way. It will find you again.