Im not good at this

Im probably going to majorly regret posting thos and will proably be called named or lose friends and honestly that would be the icing on the cake. But my friends keep telling me to reach out and to open up and that is really hadd for me and im not good at this but ik gonna try and i apologize to anyone i hurt its not my intention i just dont have the energy of the strenght to censor and sugar coat things. Im sorry.

Im sorry ive disappeared without notice. Im sorry for all the people I left on read. Ive tried to deal with this downward sprial on my own but clearly im not handling it well.

Its taking me a while to post this in trying to get it out ive been working on this post since this morning its probably all over the place and im probably not making any sense im trying

Im seeing the signs and i know whats gonna happen next if i dont talk or reach out or get so fucking drunk or numb that these horrible thoughts and urges will go away.

I lost my biggsst support system and because of upcoming custody decisions im absolutely fucking terrfied of being honest with my doctor.

Ive tried all my coping mechanism and its just getting impossible. Im not supposed to drink but im thinking its probably the safest thing i could do right now.

Logically ii know this can just be becauee of the recent med change and I just need to get through it but honestly im struggling to get through it.

Im sorry

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Ducky · 31-35, F

You have nothing to be sorry for being away. It's not like you don't have a whole world of your own problems to worry about, which should always be your immediate focus especially when things get bad. Your friends will understand this and not hold it against you and any of them who do is not a friend.

I'm sorry you're struggling again, Aly. Please take all the time you need dealing with this. No matter how long it takes, you'll always have people here for you. 💖

ineedadrink · 51-55, M

As most of us here have said, you don't owe anyone an apology for not being here. You have to take care of you. 🤗

Animalvan · 56-60, M

Why do you need to dtink

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iamonfire696 · 41-45, F

@Animalvan I have seen you making comments on many posts and she doesn’t need that.

She’s not replying to her friends, what makes you think she has time for you?

Animalvan · 56-60, M

@iamonfire696 my daughter was in that place at one time. It took alot to get her out of it and hate to see others go through it.

iamonfire696 · 41-45, F

@Animalvan I am sorry she was but clearly you didn’t read the post.

Offer words of support or suggestions here, there’s no need to PM her. She’s got enough to deal with and like she said she hasn’t been talking to her friends because she’s been dealing with this and wanted to let us know because we care about her.

Montanaman · M

I wish that there was something i could do to
Help. If there is Anything at all, please reach out and I'll do whatever i can
🤗🤗🤗🤗

iamonfire696 · 41-45, F

You don’t need to apologize at all. You have been dealing with so much and we come last here. You have to put yourself and your family first.

I am worried you’re drinking a lot though because it’s not good and I know that you know this. Is there anyone else you can reach out too?

I really hope things improve, I am so sorry.

LordShadowfire · M

This is good. Not what you're going through, you being open about it.

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